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A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

I think I had too much coffee yesterday afternoon so the caffeine is still circulating in my system. Voila, I am insomniac and wide awake! I’ve reached that point in the college semester where everything feels like I am trying to hold it all together but I am also so burnt out from the endless…… Continue reading A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

about me · anxiety · challenges · daily habits · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · winter

Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking

daily · mornings · nighttime · summer · Thoughts and feelings · weather

Cooldown Mode

In my eyes, mid-August was the pinnacle of summer’s intensity. For quite a few days, it was so hot that walking for a few blocks had me sweating right from the getgo even with a wide-brimmed hat, sunglasses, and loose clothing. After sundown hours wasn’t much help either. Often I saved my shower as the…… Continue reading Cooldown Mode

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · life · people · school life · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Highs & Lows

Last evening I trekked home during heavy rainfall in my area. It was such a monster storm that my socks and shoes got the brute of it I could hear squelching with every step I took. The lower portion of my pants were also oversaturated with water and the rain came down so hard it…… Continue reading Highs & Lows

arts and crafts · cross stitch · cross stitch embroidery · embroidery · fun · hobbies · Mother's day

May Stitch Updates

Where has the time gone? I welcome June with open arms because I love summer! My last update posts: April 2019 March 2019 February 2019 January 2019 Here is the completed cross stitch of my present to my mother for Mother’s Day. I got the frame from Michael’s, and the 05.012.19 was a customization I…… Continue reading May Stitch Updates

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · Hopes and fears · life · ramblings · school life · social anxiety

Excitement or Anxiety

It feels like too much adrenaline is still pumping in my veins from what I went through today. Even when good things happen to me, how my body responds to that stress is dizzying. I can’t tell the difference between the rush of excitement and anxiety. They feel close in similarity. Might be that I…… Continue reading Excitement or Anxiety

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What I Want Versus What Other People Want For Me

Why does this keep happening? I internally ask myself. I’ve almost reached the end of my second week studying in the hotel hospitality program. That’s six more intensive weeks left. I feel very accomplished that I’ve made it this far and intend to keep going. But tonight a single sentence from my mother nearly shattered…… Continue reading What I Want Versus What Other People Want For Me

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · life · school anxiety · school life · social anxiety

Week One Recap

I finished my first week in the hotel hospitality training school program. Wow that sentence was a mouthful to read, huh? Here are some of the highlights from those six days. Yes, classes did officially start on a Friday. I know some of the things I made note of may seem insignificant but they were…… Continue reading Week One Recap

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Living in Fear

It’s frustrating to feel like every step I’ve taken to try to pull myself from the rut I’ve fallen into amounts to nothing. Again I am troubled by the present and finding it difficult to see past the temporary nature of my current problem. My mood has been teetering these past two weeks and it’s…… Continue reading Living in Fear