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I Don’t Even Know Anymore

I must have been gone too long from this blog because I saw I got a lot of recent follows from what seems like spam blogs. Ugh. I’ve been here and there but still moving along in life. Or trying to, at least. Most days, I feel as if I just have too many thoughts…… Continue reading I Don’t Even Know Anymore

about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · fears · feelings · Hopes and fears · memories · people · personal beliefs · ramblings · social norms · Thoughts and feelings

Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

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Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking

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Recall the Moment

Life is chaos. The times I have been completely at ease, content in being where I am with no rush or disturbance knocking at my door, are few and far between. Sometimes that utter euphoria lasts seconds, or minutes, or just an hour or two. It’s nice to have those moments where I forget who…… Continue reading Recall the Moment

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · Hopes and fears · life · ramblings · school life · social anxiety

Excitement or Anxiety

It feels like too much adrenaline is still pumping in my veins from what I went through today. Even when good things happen to me, how my body responds to that stress is dizzying. I can’t tell the difference between the rush of excitement and anxiety. They feel close in similarity. Might be that I…… Continue reading Excitement or Anxiety

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Hit and Miss

I don’t know where to begin. I have been stressed out like crazy for the past 3 weeks. I overcame that hurdle, despite feeling like it was an eternity, and am preparing for another. Is it even possible to be fully content in life? I used to think that meant having no problems, but a…… Continue reading Hit and Miss

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Living in Fear

It’s frustrating to feel like every step I’ve taken to try to pull myself from the rut I’ve fallen into amounts to nothing. Again I am troubled by the present and finding it difficult to see past the temporary nature of my current problem. My mood has been teetering these past two weeks and it’s…… Continue reading Living in Fear

anxiety · Conflicting emotions · depression · Hopes and fears · life · mental health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Haze of Sadness

I am unable to describe what is wrong with me. Is there anything wrong, actually, or is my mental health tipping back and forth as it is for everyone else out there? The dips in my mood come and go. I just can’t figure out if it’s: A) Self-confidence issues about my future and all…… Continue reading Haze of Sadness

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Messed Up on the Inside

For a long time now I have been alienating myself from those who care about me. Right now I feel so conflicted because I haven’t been totally honest with them. It’s true it is uncomfortable to have those sit-down talks with them because I didn’t grow up comfortable telling them everything and it got harder…… Continue reading Messed Up on the Inside

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Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”

I was over my aunt and uncle’s house in Jersey yesterday where my brother’s girlfriend met them for the first time ever. For perhaps 10 minutes or more, the focus of a chat that she was having with my uncle was about work. Not only her job but where he has worked and they even…… Continue reading Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”