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Nervous Energy

I’m tired and have an early work day tomorrow morning so this post will be a short one. I had Thursday and Friday off from work due to the Thanksgiving holiday but otherwise, I did not celebrate it. Having days off was nice though. For once I didn’t have to set my alarm to wake…… Continue reading Nervous Energy

anxiety · public speaking · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Speaking Nerves

This post will be kind of different. If you clicked the audio link within this post, you’ll hear my voice reading along with what is written here. I’m in the midst of recovering from a cold and have been especially prone lately to an itchy throat that comes out as a dry cough. I hope…… Continue reading Speaking Nerves

amusement park · people · perception · public speaking · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Spotlight Effect

I have a packed day tomorrow that involves a lot of “peopling” and I have high hopes that I can do it. I felt somewhat stressed about all of it. To give my mind a break from thinking so hard, I read this lighthearted article that had a round-up of advice given by people on…… Continue reading Spotlight Effect

about me · Comfort zone · family · personal growth · verbal communication

Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

anxiety · school · social anxiety · verbal communication

Better Late Than Never?

I really have no idea where I am going with this post. I needed a space to decompress the mixed emotions I am going through in the present, while once again reflecting on past echoes of childhood discontentment. In the boring saga of the latest chapter of my life, I went in today to do…… Continue reading Better Late Than Never?

about me · anxiety · childhood memories · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · insomnia · life · mental health · pain · Parental issues · parents · phobia · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

about me · anxiety · conversation · insecurities · irrational thinking · making choices · people · social anxiety · verbal communication

Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

I really suck at talking about my feelings with practically everyone. Verbally, it is never easy. I’ve always had this problem stemming from early childhood. Explaining how I feel in written form is more freeing and cohesive. I have time to think about what I want to say in words, as opposed to voicing whatever…… Continue reading Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

about me · anxiety · Comfort zone · Conflicting emotions · family · feelings · flaws · insecurities · Making mistakes · parents · people problems · personal growth · personal habits · regrets · siblings · social anxiety · socially awkward · verbal communication

After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

about me · anxiety · around the house · Conflicting emotions · dreams · family · friends · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · Mood swings · people · personal beliefs · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · solitude · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

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Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People