anxiety · school · social anxiety · verbal communication

Better Late Than Never?

I really have no idea where I am going with this post. I needed a space to decompress the mixed emotions I am going through in the present, while once again reflecting on past echoes of childhood discontentment. In the boring saga of the latest chapter of my life, I went in today to do…… Continue reading Better Late Than Never?

about me · anxiety · childhood memories · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · insomnia · life · mental health · pain · Parental issues · parents · phobia · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

about me · anxiety · conversation · insecurities · irrational thinking · making choices · people · social anxiety · verbal communication

Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

I really suck at talking about my feelings with practically everyone. Verbally, it is never easy. I’ve always had this problem stemming from early childhood. Explaining how I feel in written form is more freeing and cohesive. I have time to think about what I want to say in words, as opposed to voicing whatever…… Continue reading Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

about me · anxiety · Comfort zone · Conflicting emotions · family · feelings · flaws · insecurities · Making mistakes · parents · people problems · personal growth · personal habits · regrets · siblings · social anxiety · socially awkward · verbal communication

After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

about me · anxiety · around the house · Conflicting emotions · dreams · family · friends · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · Mood swings · people · personal beliefs · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · solitude · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

about me · anxiety · challenges · Comfort zone · flaws · life · overthinking things · people · people problems · perception · personal beliefs · race and identity · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

anxiety · family · Mood swings · people · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Not Explaining Myself to Others

Well. I became aware of a facet of one of my personal habits that I wasn’t aware of before. Sound confusing? Yeah. It’s like being so used to behaving a certain way in certain situations and not realizing my own behavior caused a disconnect between me and whoever I was communicating with. Firstly I would…… Continue reading Not Explaining Myself to Others