anxiety · school · social anxiety · verbal communication

Better Late Than Never?

I really have no idea where I am going with this post. I needed a space to decompress the mixed emotions I am going through in the present, while once again reflecting on past echoes of childhood discontentment. In the boring saga of the latest chapter of my life, I went in today to do…… Continue reading Better Late Than Never?

about me · anxiety · childhood memories · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · insomnia · life · mental health · pain · Parental issues · parents · phobia · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

about me · anxiety · conversation · insecurities · irrational thinking · making choices · people · social anxiety · verbal communication

Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

I really suck at talking about my feelings with practically everyone. Verbally, it is never easy. I’ve always had this problem stemming from early childhood. Explaining how I feel in written form is more freeing and cohesive. I have time to think about what I want to say in words, as opposed to voicing whatever…… Continue reading Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

about me · anxiety · Comfort zone · Conflicting emotions · family · feelings · flaws · insecurities · Making mistakes · parents · people problems · personal growth · personal habits · regrets · siblings · social anxiety · socially awkward · verbal communication

After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

about me · anxiety · around the house · Conflicting emotions · dreams · family · friends · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · Mood swings · people · personal beliefs · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · solitude · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

about me · anxiety · challenges · Comfort zone · flaws · life · overthinking things · people · people problems · perception · personal beliefs · race and identity · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

anxiety · family · Mood swings · people · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Not Explaining Myself to Others

Well. I became aware of a facet of one of my personal habits that I wasn’t aware of before. Sound confusing? Yeah. It’s like being so used to behaving a certain way in certain situations and not realizing my own behavior caused a disconnect between me and whoever I was communicating with. Firstly I would…… Continue reading Not Explaining Myself to Others

anxiety · Conflicting emotions · fears · Feeling ill · feelings · flight or fight · life · mental health · Mood swings · people · perception · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Under Pressure

Under Pressure. These are truly the two words that come to mind when I am not feeling well and for whatever reason I am compelled to pretend like I am completely fine. I don’t know when this behavior of mine started or why my mind decided to have such a routine that has become essential…… Continue reading Under Pressure

about me · accents · anxiety · humor · shyness · verbal communication

Difficult Words to Pronounce

I attribute my inability to pronounce some words confidently in the English language because of two things. One, I’m terrible at public speaking. I developed terrible shyness every time I read out loud during my years in school. Of the times every person in the class had their chance to read a paragraph or a…… Continue reading Difficult Words to Pronounce

anxiety · blogging · public speaking · social anxiety · writing

Scared by an Icebreaker Question

I have never liked icebreaker questions. My fear of them stems from my school years where the activity always came up as the teacher’s method of making everyone “get to know each other”. Icebreaker questions are meant to be non-threatening and a casual, fun way for people to interact with one another, but being that…… Continue reading Scared by an Icebreaker Question