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Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

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How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

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What To Feel

I made it through the hard-biting winter and am enjoying the warmness of almost summer. I opted not to enroll in any college courses during the Spring 2022 semester because I had too much going on with work and other things. I didn’t want to take on more than I could handle at the time.…… Continue reading What To Feel

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Highs & Lows

Last evening I trekked home during heavy rainfall in my area. It was such a monster storm that my socks and shoes got the brute of it I could hear squelching with every step I took. The lower portion of my pants were also oversaturated with water and the rain came down so hard it…… Continue reading Highs & Lows

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Excitement or Anxiety

It feels like too much adrenaline is still pumping in my veins from what I went through today. Even when good things happen to me, how my body responds to that stress is dizzying. I can’t tell the difference between the rush of excitement and anxiety. They feel close in similarity. Might be that I…… Continue reading Excitement or Anxiety

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Week One Recap

I finished my first week in the hotel hospitality training school program. Wow that sentence was a mouthful to read, huh? Here are some of the highlights from those six days. Yes, classes did officially start on a Friday. I know some of the things I made note of may seem insignificant but they were…… Continue reading Week One Recap

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After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

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Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

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Last Hooray of 2018

It’s the last day of 2018. I am excited and scared of being present for another 365 days done and over with, and of the anticipation of all the happiness and pain that may follow into 2019. I feel lost every year. I don’t know if I am as aimless as I was at the…… Continue reading Last Hooray of 2018

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Birthdate / Birthday

Today I turned another year older. Last night before midnight, I felt hyper aware of the minutes ticking down. It came and it happened. How many other people around the world also have the same birthdate as me, I wonder? The years of getting a cake and posing for photos in my best dress to…… Continue reading Birthdate / Birthday