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5 Fails & 5 Focuses

The blog post title might be an odd one but it fits with the theme I was going for. I almost wrote “5 Failures” and changed it to “5 Fails” for a less harsh tone to reference the 5 things I feel I did not do well today at work. And then there is the…… Continue reading 5 Fails & 5 Focuses

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Home Away From Home

There is so much I want to say. The last month or so has been crazy. My lovely internship at an urban farm has taken up the bulk of my time 3 days out of my week. Much of it has been good but I’ve had hard days. I have had a lot of fun…… Continue reading Home Away From Home

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Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”

I was over my aunt and uncle’s house in Jersey yesterday where my brother’s girlfriend met them for the first time ever. For perhaps 10 minutes or more, the focus of a chat that she was having with my uncle was about work. Not only her job but where he has worked and they even…… Continue reading Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”

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A Frenzy of Anxiety

I don’t want to lose my mind just because I am anxious. Of course, my gut reaction is to want to avoid whatever is causing me to feel this way. I’ve danced to this tune for my whole life. I just hate the other feelings that accompany the anxiety. For right now, I’m currently trying…… Continue reading A Frenzy of Anxiety

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Soul Searching & Pushing Myself

There’s no easy way to rise to the challenges of life. I still feel like my social anxiety somewhat handicaps me and keeps me from functioning to the fullest in certain situations, but I’m done saying, “I can’t” for some situations where I am scared and want to avoid what is making me scared. I…… Continue reading Soul Searching & Pushing Myself

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Labor Day + Post-Job Thoughts

Today is Labor Day. I wish I could say something patriotic on this national holiday but unfortunately, I do not since I don’t even feel like I deserve to be celebratory. In the days prior to this day, a pang went off in my chest whenever I thought of Labor Day. How can I describe…… Continue reading Labor Day + Post-Job Thoughts

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Things I Learned About Myself in Therapy

Yesterday’s group therapy session I partook in was especially helpful. I can feel a difference in myself that seems to be almost physical, in the sense my body is lighter from letting go of emotional baggage I didn’t know I was carrying with me. My therapy homework assignment last week was to write a thought…… Continue reading Things I Learned About Myself in Therapy

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He Doesn’t Understand After All

Well, I quit my job. It’s done. I knew the dynamic in the office would be different this week since my other coworker went away on vacation for a week and I had to come in earlier to help out my remaining coworker. You have no idea how close I was to not even walking…… Continue reading He Doesn’t Understand After All

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Being Heard By Others

I have always been super self-conscious about my own voice. The worst is how self-conscious I feel when I talk to someone in the presence of other people or knowing that other people around me are listening as I talk. Result? My voice usually comes out lower than I had hoped for due to the…… Continue reading Being Heard By Others