about me · Comfort zone · family · personal growth · verbal communication

Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

challenges · courage · life · personal beliefs · personal growth

Household Nuisance

The worst thing about still living with family is how easy it is to be broken down by their criticism. I can’t help but think if I lived elsewhere, it would’ve been more like an Okay, that’s your opinion and I don’t really care. Somehow it feels more personal and affects me more deeply than…… Continue reading Household Nuisance

anxiety · college days · daily · life · overthinking things · Thoughts and feelings

Life Stressors

I’m contemplating visiting my professor during his office hours on Tuesday to talk to him about my discomfort with being back in a classroom around people after attending virtual-only courses for several semesters. I don’t know how exactly voicing my concerns to him will change anything. I’m unhappy the classroom itself is small and it…… Continue reading Life Stressors

about me · anxiety · avoidance tendencies · daily habits · eye contact · mental health · personal growth · social anxiety · social norms · Thoughts and feelings

Caring Too Much About What People Think

Back in 2020 when I first transferred into the college I am still studying at now, I was in desperate need of mental health support and turned to my school’s personal counseling office. I enrolled in weekly scheduled group therapy sessions where there were two therapists-in-training and a select number of students who were also…… Continue reading Caring Too Much About What People Think

anxiety · gardening · school · social anxiety

High-Low-High-Low

Why does this keep happening to me?? The more social interactions I have, the more I have for reflecting upon at the end of my day. Those reflections don’t usually occur until I’ve had time to settle in at home after dinner with a shower and a change of clothes. Then I have adequate space…… Continue reading High-Low-High-Low

Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

about me · anxiety · Hopes and fears · mental health · perception · reflections · social anxiety · socially awkward

A Week’s Worth

I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth

bad habits · Comfort zone · Coping with anxiety · coworkers · daily habits · eye contact · feelings · flaws · flight or fight · insecurities · jobs · mental health · personal growth · personal habits · ramblings · relationships · school life · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · Thoughts and feelings

How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

anxiety · Coping with anxiety · mental health · people problems · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Anxious Mind + Hated Habits

I walked for 19,430 steps today. Most of those steps were done after work in the afternoon once I had time to eat lunch and rest and save up enough energy to walk to my heart’s content. I visited a special house in the neighborhood that is somewhat known for its architectural style that resembles…… Continue reading Anxious Mind + Hated Habits