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Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking

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Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

I really suck at talking about my feelings with practically everyone. Verbally, it is never easy. I’ve always had this problem stemming from early childhood. Explaining how I feel in written form is more freeing and cohesive. I have time to think about what I want to say in words, as opposed to voicing whatever…… Continue reading Difficulty with Bringing Up a Topic

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After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

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Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

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Looking Young

It’s my fourth day vacationing in China. Twice so far I got mistaken for being younger than my biological age. I’m not happy about it even though I know another person in my shoes might take the “Oh you look so young” comment as a compliment rather than something bad. My knee-jerk reaction was to…… Continue reading Looking Young

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G2K: Get to Know

I’m late again with having skipped G2K for several weeks again. XD I guess I will be putting these up on a more infrequent basis. Completing one per week is a bit hard as I’m so forgetful! These questions were provided by Revenge of Eve. 🙂 G2K is a series of questions intended to bring the…… Continue reading G2K: Get to Know

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Alone or Together

I know I am a person capable of much even though I have anxiety. I get anxious over purportedly “dumb” things. I belittle myself in this way because of the many times I’ve been in the moment of being actively anxious and how stuck I am. I think, Why am I feeling anxiety over this?…… Continue reading Alone or Together

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Failure After Failure

Another bad day. Boo hoo, poor me. Tough luck because everyone is going through something and my problems are not 1 in a billion. I know that so there is no hiding. Except I still do because, what the hell, every time I take a bold step towards change does not mean I can become…… Continue reading Failure After Failure