about me · dysfunctional · family · life · mental health · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Echoes of the Past

Some days I think I am over it. Other days I relive the past in my mind and it’s like getting sucked into a vortex of pain, anger, and sadness. Several nights as of late I’ve fallen into this mindset and been insomniac. It would be easier on myself to just look to the future…… Continue reading Echoes of the Past

about me · anxiety · fitness · life · mental health · Physical health · school life · Thoughts and feelings

Sinking or Swimming

My posts continue to be melancholic. I feel like I have been in a haze. Self-preservation is an innate instinct and that’s what I’ve been trying to do. Just surviving somehow. My physical and mental health took some hits during the stay-at-home order. I think I still am suffering, maybe from the aftereffects, even though…… Continue reading Sinking or Swimming

life · Physical health · ramblings · school life · Thoughts and feelings

Checking In After An Absence

Wow I haven’t checked WordPress in weeks, except to give a random like to a passing post I enjoyed reading for 5 minutes or reply to a comment someone left me on my blog. I don’t really have a negative or positive opinion for my absence. Life goes on everywhere. There was a time in…… Continue reading Checking In After An Absence

about me · body image · dysfunctional · family · food · habits · personal beliefs · Thoughts and feelings

Cultural Views of Food

This might seem like a topic that has come out of nowhere, but truly, it’s been a subject matter that’s been on my mind for a long time. Because of the complexity of the issue and how food interrelates to other things like body image and culture, I wasn’t sure how to talk about it.…… Continue reading Cultural Views of Food

life · life changes · Thoughts and feelings

Staying At Home

I would sure like to be uplifting and positive but mostly I am in a “meh” mood. A pandemic can sure change day-to-day life. It’s been like 3 weeks under this stay-at-home order and I really wish it was over. It’s now mandatory in the state of New York to wear a facial mask outdoors.…… Continue reading Staying At Home

anxiety · life · ramblings · school life

Get Through This

I’ve not gone out in the last 3-4 days. That’s an estimate since I lost count as the days are slowly blending into one another. The only real schedule I am on is the days and times I have my online classes from Mondays to Thursdays. Most of my courses still meet virtually (on Blackboard…… Continue reading Get Through This

about me · anxiety · school life · social anxiety

Conundrum of Life

Hi again. I am still here. I’ve opened WordPress a few times since my last post with ideas of what to write. I decided against it. I remember some of my old, old posts from when I first started WordPress and it’s embarrassing how hard I tried, through my depression and anxiety, to be positive.…… Continue reading Conundrum of Life

about me · anxiety · mental health · school anxiety · social anxiety

A Single Moment

Trigger warning: Mentions of suicide and suicidal thoughts (towards the end of the blog post). You know the feeling when life gives you problem after problem and it starts to pile up because they’re issues you can’t solve right away but you’re trying to hold it all together and not lose your s**t? And then…… Continue reading A Single Moment