about me · life · mental health · social anxiety

Ready for It

I swear I did not set out to come up with a blog post title that coincidentally is the same title of a well-known Taylor Swift song. Though I can’t seem to stop listening to Getaway Car lately… but that’s a story for another time. It’s easy to deem that I can think myself into…… Continue reading Ready for It

emotions · feelings · life · memories · mental health · Thoughts and feelings

Spots in My Memory

I am a frequent user of the Spotify app on my phone. I love that the program allows me to create custom playlists of songs I enjoy. While I typically use Spotify on my phone, I also have it on my desktop computer. Yesterday I happened to have it open while I was busy on…… Continue reading Spots in My Memory

anxiety · flight or fight · life · mental health · people

Unfiltered

I was angry yesterday. About what; to explain seems inconsequential now. I’ll say that my anxiety was involved (as usual) because when is my anxiety not involved in my life? That rage burned so hot I thought it would never end. I had too many thoughts running in my mind, buzzing like a beehive. I…… Continue reading Unfiltered

about me · birthday · ramblings

Growing a Year Older

November 26th is my birthday but to me, I will probably treat it as a normal day. If I really think about it, every day is someone’s birthday somewhere in the world. It’s dreadful being asked what I want as a present/gift. The question makes me feel like I am being put on the spot.…… Continue reading Growing a Year Older

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

The Mess Inside Me

I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me

anxiety · social anxiety · socially awkward

Thoughts and More Thoughts

My brain goes through a nonstop cycle of thinking. I had a somewhat morbid thought last night after I switched off my lamp and settled into a comfortable stillness under my blankets: that it’s impossible for my mind to stop being active even during sleep, unless I died and my brain shut down permanently. It’s…… Continue reading Thoughts and More Thoughts