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Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

decisions · life · memories · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings · writing

Temporary Inconveniences

The flow of my words can come out endlessly like a nonstop river. Other days I squeeze out a few droplets and those are the posts I keep in my drafts section, unfinished and set aside for when I’m ready to expand on those topics. I feel I write best during times I’m completely focused…… Continue reading Temporary Inconveniences

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Repetitive Dreaming

I thought I left this repetitive dream behind in 2018 because since the new year, I haven’t dreamt of it again. Until this morning. The dream always had an old feel to it. Nostalgia, perhaps, in a wretched way that was both a wish for things to have stayed as they were and for things…… Continue reading Repetitive Dreaming

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Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

anxiety · family · Mood swings · people · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Not Explaining Myself to Others

Well. I became aware of a facet of one of my personal habits that I wasn’t aware of before. Sound confusing? Yeah. It’s like being so used to behaving a certain way in certain situations and not realizing my own behavior caused a disconnect between me and whoever I was communicating with. Firstly I would…… Continue reading Not Explaining Myself to Others

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Last Hooray of 2018

It’s the last day of 2018. I am excited and scared of being present for another 365 days done and over with, and of the anticipation of all the happiness and pain that may follow into 2019. I feel lost every year. I don’t know if I am as aimless as I was at the…… Continue reading Last Hooray of 2018

anxiety · fitness · mental health

Fitness Shenanigans

I’ve been using a LETSCOM fitness watch since about June 2018 to track my daily step count and today I upgraded to a FitBit Alta HR watch. It was a Christmas gift from a family member, which I opened this morning (Christmas Day 🙂 ). I did not unbox the watch and begin the process…… Continue reading Fitness Shenanigans