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Bumps in the Road

On Tuesday, I had the worst migraine. Maybe it was my body finally catching up to my mind and telling me to take a break. I got up briefly to eat breakfast but otherwise I felt too lightheaded to do much less except crawl back into bed. It seemed like I was going in and…… Continue reading Bumps in the Road

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Life Stressors

I’m contemplating visiting my professor during his office hours on Tuesday to talk to him about my discomfort with being back in a classroom around people after attending virtual-only courses for several semesters. I don’t know how exactly voicing my concerns to him will change anything. I’m unhappy the classroom itself is small and it…… Continue reading Life Stressors

Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

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How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

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A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

I think I had too much coffee yesterday afternoon so the caffeine is still circulating in my system. Voila, I am insomniac and wide awake! I’ve reached that point in the college semester where everything feels like I am trying to hold it all together but I am also so burnt out from the endless…… Continue reading A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

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Another Day Gone

Nighttime has come; the end of another day gone. I’m tired; it seems my body habitually goes into low battery mode after a stressful event. Hours ago I met with a professor on Zoom to discuss a possible research project idea that I am interested in pursuing under his mentorship. I have never been this…… Continue reading Another Day Gone

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Sinking or Swimming

My posts continue to be melancholic. I feel like I have been in a haze. Self-preservation is an innate instinct and that’s what I’ve been trying to do. Just surviving somehow. My physical and mental health took some hits during the stay-at-home order. I think I still am suffering, maybe from the aftereffects, even though…… Continue reading Sinking or Swimming

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Checking In After An Absence

Wow I haven’t checked WordPress in weeks, except to give a random like to a passing post I enjoyed reading for 5 minutes or reply to a comment someone left me on my blog. I don’t really have a negative or positive opinion for my absence. Life goes on everywhere. There was a time in…… Continue reading Checking In After An Absence

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Get Through This

I’ve not gone out in the last 3-4 days. That’s an estimate since I lost count as the days are slowly blending into one another. The only real schedule I am on is the days and times I have my online classes from Mondays to Thursdays. Most of my courses still meet virtually (on Blackboard…… Continue reading Get Through This

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Conundrum of Life

Hi again. I am still here. I’ve opened WordPress a few times since my last post with ideas of what to write. I decided against it. I remember some of my old, old posts from when I first started WordPress and it’s embarrassing how hard I tried, through my depression and anxiety, to be positive.…… Continue reading Conundrum of Life