anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

The Mess Inside Me

I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · awkward · blogging · family · social anxiety · solitude · writing

Upset Over Stupid Things

I’m still doing poorly at times with managing my anxiety. I get upset when the change starts blooming inside me. It can happen on a subconscious level without me even realizing there has been a shift in my mood. Or maybe I do recognize it but I don’t know how to seize control of what…… Continue reading Upset Over Stupid Things

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Failure After Failure

Another bad day. Boo hoo, poor me. Tough luck because everyone is going through something and my problems are not 1 in a billion. I know that so there is no hiding. Except I still do because, what the hell, every time I take a bold step towards change does not mean I can become…… Continue reading Failure After Failure

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I’m Late = Avoid the Situation

I keep making the same mistake again. I’ll be honest about what it is, but even on this blog, I am feeling kind of embarrassed to write openly about the issue. It’s been a recurring problem that I want to change. Not to change for other people, but for myself because the choice I keep…… Continue reading I’m Late = Avoid the Situation

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RRW #4: Comparison

A surge of confidence comes like a lonely star shining in my darkness. For a moment I feel capable and strong and that I can do it. Without warning, the guiding light pops, deflated by my perception of other people. I look to them with longing, wondering why they can do it with no problems.…… Continue reading RRW #4: Comparison

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · coping mechanisms · Coping with anxiety · Learning lessons · Making mistakes · people · perception · school life · Talking to strangers

Prompt: A Lesson I Learned The Hard Way

I seem to use school memories a lot in these prompts, but I can’t help it! Also, note that I am changing up the format a little for these posts and now the link to the list of prompts and the prompt question I used can be found at the bottom of this post. A…… Continue reading Prompt: A Lesson I Learned The Hard Way

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Prompt: The Last Time I Left My Comfort Zone

This prompt originates from this list. Write about the last time you left your comfort zone. At the time I am writing this, I am typing this post in advance so for clarification I am adding a specific date for an event I am recounting. The event I am going to talk about happened on…… Continue reading Prompt: The Last Time I Left My Comfort Zone

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · blogging · coping mechanisms · Coping with anxiety · eye contact · life · making choices · overthinking things · perception · social anxiety · strangers · Talking to strangers · Writing prompt

Prompt: What I Was Really Thinking

This prompt originates from this list. Write about what you were really thinking. This was something that happened recently. It was two weeks ago on a Sunday when I went shopping with my parents. We stopped for lunch at a Popeye’s inside the mall. There was only one empty table with four seats left so…… Continue reading Prompt: What I Was Really Thinking

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

Unwanted Housemate

So what I feared has come to pass. My brother’s friend came last night and is staying over until sometime tomorrow when he’ll be driven to the airport by my brother. I suppose since the airport is closer from here rather than my brother’s own apartment and that’s why both of them are staying over.…… Continue reading Unwanted Housemate

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · life · social anxiety

Being Stone Cold

Excuse the profanity and cursing in this post. If it’s not your cup of tea, please exit this page now. Otherwise, read on, but be aware this is an extra long post full of more of my ramblings than my usual dose. My mood fluctuates and can be so unpredictable, at times. Is it the…… Continue reading Being Stone Cold