anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

The Mess Inside Me

I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · awkward · blogging · family · social anxiety · solitude · writing

Upset Over Stupid Things

I’m still doing poorly at times with managing my anxiety. I get upset when the change starts blooming inside me. It can happen on a subconscious level without me even realizing there has been a shift in my mood. Or maybe I do recognize it but I don’t know how to seize control of what…… Continue reading Upset Over Stupid Things

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · blogging · daily · insecurities · mental health · social anxiety · writing

Failure After Failure

Another bad day. Boo hoo, poor me. Tough luck because everyone is going through something and my problems are not 1 in a billion. I know that so there is no hiding. Except I still do because, what the hell, every time I take a bold step towards change does not mean I can become…… Continue reading Failure After Failure

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · blogging · daily · life · social anxiety · writing

I’m Late = Avoid the Situation

I keep making the same mistake again. I’ll be honest about what it is, but even on this blog, I am feeling kind of embarrassed to write openly about the issue. It’s been a recurring problem that I want to change. Not to change for other people, but for myself because the choice I keep…… Continue reading I’m Late = Avoid the Situation

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · blogging · fears · feelings · perception · social anxiety · writing

RRW #4: Comparison

A surge of confidence comes like a lonely star shining in my darkness. For a moment I feel capable and strong and that I can do it. Without warning, the guiding light pops, deflated by my perception of other people. I look to them with longing, wondering why they can do it with no problems.…… Continue reading RRW #4: Comparison

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · coping mechanisms · Coping with anxiety · Learning lessons · Making mistakes · people · perception · school life · Talking to strangers

Prompt: A Lesson I Learned The Hard Way

I seem to use school memories a lot in these prompts, but I can’t help it! Also, note that I am changing up the format a little for these posts and now the link to the list of prompts and the prompt question I used can be found at the bottom of this post. A…… Continue reading Prompt: A Lesson I Learned The Hard Way

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Prompt: The Last Time I Left My Comfort Zone

This prompt originates from this list. Write about the last time you left your comfort zone. At the time I am writing this, I am typing this post in advance so for clarification I am adding a specific date for an event I am recounting. The event I am going to talk about happened on…… Continue reading Prompt: The Last Time I Left My Comfort Zone