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Home Away From Home

There is so much I want to say. The last month or so has been crazy. My lovely internship at an urban farm has taken up the bulk of my time 3 days out of my week. Much of it has been good but I’ve had hard days. I have had a lot of fun…… Continue reading Home Away From Home

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Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

emotions · feelings · life · memories · mental health · Thoughts and feelings

Spots in My Memory

I am a frequent user of the Spotify app on my phone. I love that the program allows me to create custom playlists of songs I enjoy. While I typically use Spotify on my phone, I also have it on my desktop computer. Yesterday I happened to have it open while I was busy on…… Continue reading Spots in My Memory

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Mistakes About Pets

This is a hard, hard topic. My household has never been a fit environment for pets. In childhood, my brother had tadpoles that lasted days in a tank before they died. My dad bought them for him knowing they wouldn’t last but he did it anyway just to satisfy my brother’s whims. I remember being…… Continue reading Mistakes About Pets

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Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

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Temporary Inconveniences

The flow of my words can come out endlessly like a nonstop river. Other days I squeeze out a few droplets and those are the posts I keep in my drafts section, unfinished and set aside for when I’m ready to expand on those topics. I feel I write best during times I’m completely focused…… Continue reading Temporary Inconveniences

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Seafood Fanatic

My aunt came over to stay last weekend. She’s one of my relatives who I’ve always liked so although my social anxiety nerves were twitching, I was sure I would be fine. After an early drive into New York from Jersey, she popped out to spend the day in Midtown Manhattan with an old college…… Continue reading Seafood Fanatic

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New Experiences

My time in China is almost up!! Today I left the hotel in Xiamen to travel back to Beijing. Another 3-hour flight and then I’ll stay overnight at an airport hotel before boarding the plane for New York the next morning at 9 AM. Ugh I am not looking forward to the 13-hour flight to…… Continue reading New Experiences

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Restroom Introvert

Well. Judging from the post title, this may not be a topic you want to read about. I don’t intend to gross people out with descriptions, but if you find discussion on bodily functions in restrooms to be revolting, this is your chance to hit the back button now. I’m lucky that I have always…… Continue reading Restroom Introvert

childhood memories · family · memories · nostalgia

Of Times Past

It’s been quite some time since I’ve stayed in my cousin’s room. Or rather, former room since she no longer lives with her parents. Her old bed has fresh sheets, courtesy of her mom, as I am a guest in the home tonight. I get buzzes of familarity from seeing childhood belongings of hers. Collages…… Continue reading Of Times Past