Well, I quit my job. It’s done. I knew the dynamic in the office would be different since I had to come in earlier to help my coworker since the other girl was away on vacation for a week. You have no idea how close I was to not even walking through the door today,…… Continue reading He Doesn’t Understand After All
I have always been super self-conscious about my own voice. The worst is how self-conscious I feel when I talk to someone in the presence of other people, or knowing that other people around me are listening as I talk. Result? My voice usually comes out lower than I had hoped for due to the…… Continue reading Being Heard By Others
It is Thursday morning. I have no time to use my computer in the morning anymore so these quick blogs while I am on the bus to work will have to do. This whole week has not been bad for me, although I felt anxious almost constantly with my heart pumping like a jackhammer in…… Continue reading An Anxiety Confession
Work on Monday was not horrible. My heart rate still spiked every single time the phone rang. Within half a second of hearing the trill of the phone, I was bombarded with instant dread and apprehension of something awful happening if I picked up the phone. Several times I managed to make quick work of…… Continue reading What To Do?
I couldn’t sleep, so here I am blogging in the hopes of releasing whatever keeps lingering in my thoughts. All my life I’ve been relentlessly greedy about having time to myself to do as I please. As a young kid, I couldn’t wait to let out from school so I could go home, possibly finish…… Continue reading A Transient Time
Today, as I type this blog post, it is Sunday. You would not believe the rush of elation I felt on Friday after I got off work and was physically walking to the bus stop to get home. I was FREE and at ease knowing I did not have to come into work for the…… Continue reading Weekend Reflections
Well, it happened. I had an anxiety blow-up that cumulated with me crying in the work office. This came about after I answered the work phone and I was in a panic for almost every time I picked up the phone. One of my co-workers was advising me to speak louder because everyone in the…… Continue reading Second Day of Work Meltdown