activities · anxiety · dysfunctional · family · ramblings

Doing Nothing

I’m hyperaware and probably spent a lot of unnecessary minutes thinking about this. On the days I don’t have a preplanned schedule, playing my time by ear can have its perks. Sometimes, though, a gravity of a low mood pulls at me and the more I do nothing and the feeling just grows stronger in…… Continue reading Doing Nothing

culture · humor · new york · people problems · social anxiety · social norms

Weird Things People Do in Public

I feel a bit judgmental writing this post. The kind of habits I find to be “weird”, other people may think, What is she even talking about? That’s totally fine! I bet some of the things I do can be perceived as weird too. It depends on an individual’s perspective and what strikes them as…… Continue reading Weird Things People Do in Public

acquaintance · anxiety · eating in public · people · ramblings

Familiar Face

Today’s hot! Again the temperature has climbed to 90 in New York after a few cooler days of 80ish weather (except Friday, when it was such a heat wave outside even some local libraries closed early!). I don’t know what I was thinking sitting down on some concrete steps in a public park area. Mainly…… Continue reading Familiar Face

anxiety · friends · friendship · self-esteem · social anxiety

Not Brave Today

Of all the courageous things I did today, what sticks out first and foremost is not my triumphs but my failures. I’m a work in progress, yes. Where I am today was not where I was a year ago or two years ago or even three years ago. How I feel about myself now might…… Continue reading Not Brave Today

about me · accents · anxiety · humor · shyness · verbal communication

Difficult Words to Pronounce

I attribute my inability to pronounce some words confidently in the English language because of two things. One, I’m terrible at public speaking. I developed terrible shyness every time I read out loud during my years in school. Of the times every person in the class had their chance to read a paragraph or a…… Continue reading Difficult Words to Pronounce

anxiety · fears · friends · friendship · insecurities · social anxiety

Alone or Together

I know I am a person capable of much even though I have anxiety. I get anxious over purportedly “dumb” things. I belittle myself in this way because of the many times I’ve been in the moment of being actively anxious and how stuck I am. I think, Why am I feeling anxiety over this?…… Continue reading Alone or Together