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A Week’s Worth

I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth

bad habits · Comfort zone · Coping with anxiety · coworkers · daily habits · eye contact · feelings · flaws · flight or fight · insecurities · jobs · mental health · personal growth · personal habits · ramblings · relationships · school life · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · Thoughts and feelings

How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

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Admitting a Problem

Habits are hard to break. For years I’ve had a skin picking problem where I can’t seem to keep my hands off of healing scabs. I pick them off during moments of boredom, anxiety, and/or when I perceive the scab as an imperfection that needs to come off from my skin ASAP. There have even…… Continue reading Admitting a Problem

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest

feelings · friends · friendship · fun · fun in the sun · self-confidence

Trying New Things

I haven’t written this frequently on this blog in quite some time. It wasn’t a conscious decision to start posting more often again. It’s more like the words are spontaneously coming to me and if I feel like writing, then I will. I had one heck of a day working outdoors in NYC while temperatures…… Continue reading Trying New Things

about me · anxiety · awkward · fears · feelings · flight or fight · Hopes and fears · job anxiety · overthinking things · personal growth · social anxiety · socially awkward

5 Fails & 5 Focuses

The blog post title might be an odd one but it fits with the theme I was going for. I almost wrote “5 Failures” and changed it to “5 Fails” for a less harsh tone to reference the 5 things I feel I did not do well today at work. And then there is the…… Continue reading 5 Fails & 5 Focuses

feelings · Hopes and fears · life · life changes · ramblings

Reflecting on Self-Doubt

Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt

about me · anxiety · Hopes and fears · personal growth · social anxiety

I Don’t Even Know Anymore

I must have been gone too long from this blog because I saw I got a lot of recent follows from what seems like spam blogs. Ugh. I’ve been here and there but still moving along in life. Or trying to, at least. Most days, I feel as if I just have too many thoughts…… Continue reading I Don’t Even Know Anymore

about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · fears · feelings · Hopes and fears · memories · people · personal beliefs · ramblings · social norms · Thoughts and feelings

Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

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Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking