about me · anxiety · Hopes and fears · personal growth · social anxiety

I Don’t Even Know Anymore

I must have been gone too long from this blog because I saw I got a lot of recent follows from what seems like spam blogs. Ugh. I’ve been here and there but still moving along in life. Or trying to, at least. Most days, I feel as if I just have too many thoughts…… Continue reading I Don’t Even Know Anymore

about me · Coping with anxiety · life · mental health · therapy

The Good and the Bad

I wish I could say that I felt inspired to write a post right at this moment because I have positive vibes and nothing but great things to share. That’s not it. Instead I felt the itch to write because I am in a bad mood and desperately wanted/needed some kind of outlet to get…… Continue reading The Good and the Bad

about me · anxiety · chinese customs · COVID-19 · family · orchids · school · social anxiety

Tired of This S***

Second month into 2021 and I’m trudging along. How’s your year been so far? I’ve been okay for the most part. The improvements and the struggles continue. My current therapist reminded me in my latest session with him to treat myself gently like I would treat a friend. And it’s true, I often forget to…… Continue reading Tired of This S***

about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · fears · feelings · Hopes and fears · memories · people · personal beliefs · ramblings · social norms · Thoughts and feelings

Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

about me · anxiety · challenges · daily habits · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · winter

Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking

about me · Coping with anxiety · life changes · mental health · ramblings

Life Goes On

This half of the year has been hard. That is an understatement. I am sure the distribution of burden and suffering has been disproportionate. By my circumstances, I might even be considered privileged. I have housing, healthy food, a computer and wifi, and a quiet bedroom to study and sleep in. Most of all, I…… Continue reading Life Goes On

about me · dysfunctional · family · life · mental health · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Echoes of the Past

Some days I think I am over it. Other days I relive the past in my mind and it’s like getting sucked into a vortex of pain, anger, and sadness. Several nights as of late I’ve fallen into this mindset and been insomniac. It would be easier on myself to just look to the future…… Continue reading Echoes of the Past

about me · anxiety · fitness · life · mental health · Physical health · school life · Thoughts and feelings

Sinking or Swimming

My posts continue to be melancholic. I feel like I have been in a haze. Self-preservation is an innate instinct and that’s what I’ve been trying to do. Just surviving somehow. My physical and mental health took some hits during the stay-at-home order. I think I still am suffering, maybe from the aftereffects, even though…… Continue reading Sinking or Swimming

about me · body image · dysfunctional · family · food · habits · personal beliefs · Thoughts and feelings

Cultural Views of Food

This might seem like a topic that has come out of nowhere, but truly, it’s been a subject matter that’s been on my mind for a long time. Because of the complexity of the issue and how food interrelates to other things like body image and culture, I wasn’t sure how to talk about it.…… Continue reading Cultural Views of Food

about me · anxiety · school life · social anxiety

Conundrum of Life

Hi again. I am still here. I’ve opened WordPress a few times since my last post with ideas of what to write. I decided against it. I remember some of my old, old posts from when I first started WordPress and it’s embarrassing how hard I tried, through my depression and anxiety, to be positive.…… Continue reading Conundrum of Life