about me · Comfort zone · family · personal growth · verbal communication

Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

challenges · courage · life · personal beliefs · personal growth

Household Nuisance

The worst thing about still living with family is how easy it is to be broken down by their criticism. I can’t help but think if I lived elsewhere, it would’ve been more like an Okay, that’s your opinion and I don’t really care. Somehow it feels more personal and affects me more deeply than…… Continue reading Household Nuisance

about me · anxiety · avoidance tendencies · daily habits · eye contact · mental health · personal growth · social anxiety · social norms · Thoughts and feelings

Caring Too Much About What People Think

Back in 2020 when I first transferred into the college I am still studying at now, I was in desperate need of mental health support and turned to my school’s personal counseling office. I enrolled in weekly scheduled group therapy sessions where there were two therapists-in-training and a select number of students who were also…… Continue reading Caring Too Much About What People Think

about me · anxiety · Hopes and fears · mental health · perception · reflections · social anxiety · socially awkward

A Week’s Worth

I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth

bad habits · Comfort zone · Coping with anxiety · coworkers · daily habits · eye contact · feelings · flaws · flight or fight · insecurities · jobs · mental health · personal growth · personal habits · ramblings · relationships · school life · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · Thoughts and feelings

How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

being asian · Conflicting emotions · ethnic identity · personal beliefs · prejudice · race and identity

Prejudices & Colorism

I don’t think anyone is free from having prejudices about other people. I feel like mine might stem from an innate fear of being threatened by the other person in some way so my mind just jumps to rationalizing a reason for why I need to be on my guard. This post stems from frustration…… Continue reading Prejudices & Colorism

about me · anxiety · coping mechanisms · dermatillomania · feelings · irrational thinking · mental health · pain · trichotillomania

Admitting a Problem

Habits are hard to break. For years I’ve had a skin picking problem where I can’t seem to keep my hands off of healing scabs. I pick them off during moments of boredom, anxiety, and/or when I perceive the scab as an imperfection that needs to come off from my skin ASAP. There have even…… Continue reading Admitting a Problem

about me · anxiety · awkward · fears · feelings · flight or fight · Hopes and fears · job anxiety · overthinking things · personal growth · social anxiety · socially awkward

5 Fails & 5 Focuses

The blog post title might be an odd one but it fits with the theme I was going for. I almost wrote “5 Failures” and changed it to “5 Fails” for a less harsh tone to reference the 5 things I feel I did not do well today at work. And then there is the…… Continue reading 5 Fails & 5 Focuses

about me · anxiety · interview anxiety · jobs · Thoughts and feelings

Pressure Points

I had little to no motivation to do much of anything today. Daylight Savings Time just ended, and that means that one hour ahead on the clock makes it seem like the hours of daylight in the afternoon are shorter. I hate how time is out of my control and keeps moving, whether I feel…… Continue reading Pressure Points

about me · anxiety · favorites · fun · fun in the sun · gardening · job anxiety · life changes · memories · Thoughts and feelings

Home Away From Home

There is so much I want to say. The last month or so has been crazy. My lovely internship at an urban farm has taken up the bulk of my time 3 days out of my week. Much of it has been good but I’ve had hard days. I have had a lot of fun…… Continue reading Home Away From Home