emotions · feelings · life · memories · mental health · Thoughts and feelings

Spots in My Memory

I am a frequent user of the Spotify app on my phone. I love that the program allows me to create custom playlists of songs I enjoy. While I typically use Spotify on my phone, I also have it on my desktop computer. Yesterday I happened to have it open while I was busy on…… Continue reading Spots in My Memory

daily · mornings · nighttime · summer · Thoughts and feelings · weather

Cooldown Mode

In my eyes, mid-August was the pinnacle of summer’s intensity. For quite a few days, it was so hot that walking for a few blocks had me sweating right from the getgo even with a wide-brimmed hat, sunglasses, and loose clothing. After sundown hours wasn’t much help either. Often I saved my shower as the…… Continue reading Cooldown Mode

about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · life · melancholy · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

I am always waiting for something, it seems. I have spent half my life thinking and thinking of what could and will happen, rather than just doing it and let what becomes a reality be as it is without regret. “A tad obsessive” is the phrase I have in mind to describe the constant linger…… Continue reading Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · life · people · school life · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Highs & Lows

Last evening I trekked home during heavy rainfall in my area. It was such a monster storm that my socks and shoes got the brute of it I could hear squelching with every step I took. The lower portion of my pants were also oversaturated with water and the rain came down so hard it…… Continue reading Highs & Lows

anxiety · challenges · Coping with anxiety · insomnia · life · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Getting Past Worries

I am in a state of worry, but there is a comfort in being able to acknowledge it and not trying to fight the tension. Things come and go. I actually had a good day today. The weather was wonderful enough that I wore shorts when I went outside. Just as that bit of happiness…… Continue reading Getting Past Worries

about me · anxiety · Coping with anxiety · daily · Hopes and fears · life · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Living in Fear

It’s frustrating to feel like every step I’ve taken to try to pull myself from the rut I’ve fallen into amounts to nothing. Again I am troubled by the present and finding it difficult to see past the temporary nature of my current problem. My mood has been teetering these past two weeks and it’s…… Continue reading Living in Fear