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How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest

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Jumping Through a Day

I hacked off several inches of my hair two days earlier. I have not gone to the salon in years and to this day I refuse to. I hate being waited on like that and I certainly don’t like having a stranger touch me even if it’s strictly professional and not sexual in any way.…… Continue reading Jumping Through a Day

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Battle of the Mind

I’ve had a lot of days lately. Good days. Bad days. Okay days. And a few sleepless nights. I used to be quite resistant to taking naps during the daytime, but now I nap when I feel like I need a quick recharge. I had a difficult workday two Saturdays ago when it was BLAZING…… Continue reading Battle of the Mind

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Reflecting on Self-Doubt

Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt

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Rediscovery of Social Terrors

Every day I think about so many things. I never feel like I have enough time to write all of them down. At times, thinking so much exhausts me in a way I can’t adequately describe in words. If I could try to describe it, it’s like a fatigue from the physicality of the mental…… Continue reading Rediscovery of Social Terrors

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A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

I think I had too much coffee yesterday afternoon so the caffeine is still circulating in my system. Voila, I am insomniac and wide awake! I’ve reached that point in the college semester where everything feels like I am trying to hold it all together but I am also so burnt out from the endless…… Continue reading A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

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Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

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Still Kicking

I hate that the default page my WordPress account takes me to when I click on “My sites” is the Stats page. Am I supposed to feel bad that I haven’t written in a while? I actually don’t mind that my viewership has gone down. I guess it works both ways. I haven’t had the…… Continue reading Still Kicking

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Life Goes On

This half of the year has been hard. That is an understatement. I am sure the distribution of burden and suffering has been disproportionate. By my circumstances, I might even be considered privileged. I have housing, healthy food, a computer and wifi, and a quiet bedroom to study and sleep in. Most of all, I…… Continue reading Life Goes On