activities · anxiety · dysfunctional · family · ramblings

Doing Nothing

I’m hyperaware and probably spent a lot of unnecessary minutes thinking about this. On the days I don’t have a preplanned schedule, playing my time by ear can have its perks. Sometimes, though, a gravity of a low mood pulls at me and the more I do nothing and the feeling just grows stronger in…… Continue reading Doing Nothing

acquaintance · anxiety · eating in public · people · ramblings

Familiar Face

Today’s hot! Again the temperature has climbed to 90 in New York after a few cooler days of 80ish weather (except Friday, when it was such a heat wave outside even some local libraries closed early!). I don’t know what I was thinking sitting down on some concrete steps in a public park area. Mainly…… Continue reading Familiar Face

birds · blogging · ramblings · weather · writing

May Showers

I’m caught in the cycle of May showers this week. Rain day in and day out. This brings to mind the “April showers bring May flowers” I was familiar with and liked the saying because it rhymed well. At least the plants and flowers outside will enjoy all this extra nourishment. I enjoy hearing the…… Continue reading May Showers

blogging · daily · life · nightmares · ramblings · random · writing

Crazed Nightmare & Seeing Myself As I Am

This morning, I had the most horrible nightmare. It is my worst one to date, I think. I don’t know if this is just me, but the nightmares I have during morning hours (like 7-9 AMish) are more vivid and I’m able to remember them more easily after I wake up. The whole time in…… Continue reading Crazed Nightmare & Seeing Myself As I Am

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Christmas Eve, Netflix, and Games

Well, it’s Christmas Eve! It won’t be a white Christmas around where I live. No snow, but it is raining, haha. The only celebratory thing I can think of that my family and I did was have a hot pot dinner at home. It’s just me and my parents, haha. I think I appreciate a…… Continue reading Christmas Eve, Netflix, and Games

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Life Reflections

I’ve been to just about nowhere in the last week or so. The days feel shorter, which I blame on the early sunsets. Very few people in my neighborhood put up Christmas decorations, though it’s a cheering sight to see one house turns on their Christmas lights once it gets dark out. I remember a…… Continue reading Life Reflections