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Weathering Through It

I underdressed for work on Sunday because I underestimated the forecast which said temperatures were in the mid-50’s. It felt 10 degrees colder because of the constant wind, and I definitely got the bite of it from working outdoors. I suppose I was winded from that, so even though I wore more layers under my…… Continue reading Weathering Through It

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A Week’s Worth

I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth

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How to Slow Down

I’ve got another work story to tell. It’s one I feel less negative about than everything I wrote about yesterday, however, it’s still something that I’m only figuring out now has been a life-long habit I’ve developed. On Saturdays I am mainly around one other coworker, Adele. She also works at the same site as…… Continue reading How to Slow Down

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5 Fails & 5 Focuses

The blog post title might be an odd one but it fits with the theme I was going for. I almost wrote “5 Failures” and changed it to “5 Fails” for a less harsh tone to reference the 5 things I feel I did not do well today at work. And then there is the…… Continue reading 5 Fails & 5 Focuses

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Thoughts and More Thoughts

My brain goes through a nonstop cycle of thinking. I had a somewhat morbid thought last night after I switched off my lamp and settled into a comfortable stillness under my blankets: that it’s impossible for my mind to stop being active even during sleep, unless I died and my brain shut down permanently. It’s…… Continue reading Thoughts and More Thoughts

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Feeling Lost

I think I’ve always been a little lost. Since my youth, my self-confidence has been dismal. I was never the person to join clubs or involve myself in after school activities, all because I didn’t know how to talk to people. Or was too scared to try. During weekdays I had school as an excuse…… Continue reading Feeling Lost

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After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

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Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

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Stealth in Spontaneity

The title of this post is a joke on myself. I’m the last person in the world who is suave and composed when it comes to being spontaneous. I always got the drop in my stomach during my school years whenever the teacher would calmly announce, “Now, I want you guys to pair off” or…… Continue reading Stealth in Spontaneity