Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest

feelings · Hopes and fears · life · life changes · ramblings

Reflecting on Self-Doubt

Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt

life · life changes · perception · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Rediscovery of Social Terrors

Every day I think about so many things. I never feel like I have enough time to write all of them down. At times, thinking so much exhausts me in a way I can’t adequately describe in words. If I could try to describe it, it’s like a fatigue from the physicality of the mental…… Continue reading Rediscovery of Social Terrors

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Home Away From Home

There is so much I want to say. The last month or so has been crazy. My lovely internship at an urban farm has taken up the bulk of my time 3 days out of my week. Much of it has been good but I’ve had hard days. I have had a lot of fun…… Continue reading Home Away From Home

about me · Coping with anxiety · life changes · mental health · ramblings

Life Goes On

This half of the year has been hard. That is an understatement. I am sure the distribution of burden and suffering has been disproportionate. By my circumstances, I might even be considered privileged. I have housing, healthy food, a computer and wifi, and a quiet bedroom to study and sleep in. Most of all, I…… Continue reading Life Goes On

life · life changes · Thoughts and feelings

Staying At Home

I would sure like to be uplifting and positive but mostly I am in a “meh” mood. A pandemic can sure change day-to-day life. It’s been like 3 weeks under this stay-at-home order and I really wish it was over. It’s now mandatory in the state of New York to wear a facial mask outdoors.…… Continue reading Staying At Home

anxiety · challenges · life · life changes · personal growth · social anxiety

Out of Practice

I think all the time about poor choices I made 2, 3, even 4 years ago and how they impacted me in the long run. I feel weaker for all the things I ran from, and how if only I had pushed forward like I could have, I wouldn’t be in the position I am…… Continue reading Out of Practice

anxiety · life · life changes

Dwelling On A Change

Yesterday I got a bit of news about something important to me. It’s horrible, the feeling of safety I had where I thought things were a certain way and then to get new information that has turned my plans upside down. It has left me less sure of whether I even want to try to pursue…… Continue reading Dwelling On A Change