Graduation is not too far away. I’ve worked pretty closely this semester with another student, Kris, for a recurring weekly on-campus tabling event. Next week will be our last two days tabling together. He has plans to leave in August to go out of state to continue his college education elsewhere in the U.S. for…… Continue reading Everything is Changing
When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?
On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest
Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt
Every day I think about so many things. I never feel like I have enough time to write all of them down. At times, thinking so much exhausts me in a way I can’t adequately describe in words. If I could try to describe it, it’s like a fatigue from the physicality of the mental…… Continue reading Rediscovery of Social Terrors
There is so much I want to say. The last month or so has been crazy. My lovely internship at an urban farm has taken up the bulk of my time 3 days out of my week. Much of it has been good but I’ve had hard days. I have had a lot of fun…… Continue reading Home Away From Home
This half of the year has been hard. That is an understatement. I am sure the distribution of burden and suffering has been disproportionate. By my circumstances, I might even be considered privileged. I have housing, healthy food, a computer and wifi, and a quiet bedroom to study and sleep in. Most of all, I…… Continue reading Life Goes On
I would sure like to be uplifting and positive but mostly I am in a “meh” mood. A pandemic can sure change day-to-day life. It’s been like 3 weeks under this stay-at-home order and I really wish it was over. It’s now mandatory in the state of New York to wear a facial mask outdoors.…… Continue reading Staying At Home
I think all the time about poor choices I made 2, 3, even 4 years ago and how they impacted me in the long run. I feel weaker for all the things I ran from, and how if only I had pushed forward like I could have, I wouldn’t be in the position I am…… Continue reading Out of Practice
Yesterday I got a bit of news about something important to me. It’s horrible, the feeling of safety I had where I thought things were a certain way and then to get new information that has turned my plans upside down. It has left me less sure of whether I even want to try to pursue…… Continue reading Dwelling On A Change
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