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I Don’t Even Know Anymore

I must have been gone too long from this blog because I saw I got a lot of recent follows from what seems like spam blogs. Ugh. I’ve been here and there but still moving along in life. Or trying to, at least. Most days, I feel as if I just have too many thoughts…… Continue reading I Don’t Even Know Anymore

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Out of Practice

I think all the time about poor choices I made 2, 3, even 4 years ago and how they impacted me in the long run. I feel weaker for all the things I ran from, and how if only I had pushed forward like I could have, I wouldn’t be in the position I am…… Continue reading Out of Practice

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What I Want Versus What Other People Want For Me

Why does this keep happening? I internally ask myself. I’ve almost reached the end of my second week studying in the hotel hospitality program. That’s six more intensive weeks left. I feel very accomplished that I’ve made it this far and intend to keep going. But tonight a single sentence from my mother nearly shattered…… Continue reading What I Want Versus What Other People Want For Me

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Hit and Miss

I don’t know where to begin. I have been stressed out like crazy for the past 3 weeks. I overcame that hurdle, despite feeling like it was an eternity, and am preparing for another. Is it even possible to be fully content in life? I used to think that meant having no problems, but a…… Continue reading Hit and Miss

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Feeling Lost

I think I’ve always been a little lost. Since my youth, my self-confidence has been dismal. I was never the person to join clubs or involve myself in after school activities, all because I didn’t know how to talk to people. Or was too scared to try. During weekdays I had school as an excuse…… Continue reading Feeling Lost

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After the Storm

Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm

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Stresses of Registering for a School

I have roughly eight days of vacancy before I start my first day of school in a 4-week training program to become a certified Home health aide (HHA). I did not enjoy researching online about classes… It was a hit and miss of looking at several places that could potentially be “it” for me. Of…… Continue reading Stresses of Registering for a School

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Birthdate / Birthday

Today I turned another year older. Last night before midnight, I felt hyper aware of the minutes ticking down. It came and it happened. How many other people around the world also have the same birthdate as me, I wonder? The years of getting a cake and posing for photos in my best dress to…… Continue reading Birthdate / Birthday

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RIP to Mobile Games

It seemed unimaginable that there might be a day when I would decide to say goodbye to mobile games forever. Some days ago, I did just that. No more Candy Crush, Farm Heroes Super Saga, or Cookie Jam on my phone. The trinity of 3-match games I have played on and off for these past…… Continue reading RIP to Mobile Games

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A Thing I Need to Remember

A pick-me-up for tomorrow’s adventure: Think about the process of gaining experience and getting used to a situation instead of the proposed outcome of the situation I wish to have. Go into the situation to observe and see what happens in real-time, rather than trying to meet whatever expectations (reality-based or imaginative) I have for…… Continue reading A Thing I Need to Remember