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Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

about me · anxiety · childhood memories · Conflicting emotions · Cultural views · family · insomnia · life · mental health · pain · Parental issues · parents · phobia · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

culture · podcasts · ramblings · social anxiety

Listening to True Crime Podcasts

It seems like not too long ago that I didn’t know what the heck was a podcast. Back in my day growing up in the 90’s, listening to music on the radio or stereo was all the rage. I would always fiddle around between stations until I found one playing a good song. I liked…… Continue reading Listening to True Crime Podcasts

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Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”

I was over my aunt and uncle’s house in Jersey yesterday where my brother’s girlfriend met them for the first time ever. For perhaps 10 minutes or more, the focus of a chat that she was having with my uncle was about work. Not only her job but where he has worked and they even…… Continue reading Being Asked “What Do You Do For Work?”

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Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

awkward · Comfort zone · culture · exploration · life · memories · people · reflections · Thoughts and feelings · travel

New Experiences

My time in China is almost up!! Today I left the hotel in Xiamen to travel back to Beijing. Another 3-hour flight and then I’ll stay overnight at an airport hotel before boarding the plane for New York the next morning at 9 AM. Ugh I am not looking forward to the 13-hour flight to…… Continue reading New Experiences

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Cultural Differences

It’s day 8 since I came to to Beijing, China for a 10-day vacation. I started writing this post yesterday while waiting for a flight to Xiamen. It only took 3 hours to get there, thankfully. Being part of a tour guide group for the first 5 days in China, the sights I saw were…… Continue reading Cultural Differences

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Looking Young

It’s my fourth day vacationing in China. Twice so far I got mistaken for being younger than my biological age. I’m not happy about it even though I know another person in my shoes might take the “Oh you look so young” comment as a compliment rather than something bad. My knee-jerk reaction was to…… Continue reading Looking Young

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Taking It Personally

It might not seem like much to get upset over, but I was quite peeved when my dad told me over dinner that I shouldn’t lean my elbows on the table while eating. In his words, it looks “impolite, especially since you are a girl” and “if other people in a restaurant who are at…… Continue reading Taking It Personally

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G2K: Get to Know

Whoops, I forgot to do G2K last week and it almost slipped from my mind for this week too. Better late than never! These questions were provided by Revenge of Eve. 🙂 GET 2 KNOW is a series of questions giving readers insight into the personal lives of their favorite bloggers. JOIN THE FUN! Create a post…… Continue reading G2K: Get to Know