birds · blogging · ramblings · weather · writing

May Showers

I’m caught in the cycle of May showers this week. Rain day in and day out. This brings to mind the “April showers bring May flowers” I was familiar with and liked the saying because it rhymed well. At least the plants and flowers outside will enjoy all this extra nourishment. I enjoy hearing the…… Continue reading May Showers

about me · anxiety · blogging · family · self-confidence · self-esteem · writing

“Me” Problems

I’m not at my best today. I’m tired, but not really in the usual physical sense of being so exhausted I just want to collapse into bed and drift off into sleep. I slept okay, actually. My joints are a bit tighter and there’s a slight tension in my muscles because yesterday I was working…… Continue reading “Me” Problems

blogging · existential crisis · people · social anxiety · social norms · writing

The Weight of Me

Am I really here? Do I really exist? Am I truly being seen? What do people perceive when they look at me, when they interact with me? Do they remember me still after time has blurred the edges of a memory? These questions came up in my mind at the most random moment ever. I…… Continue reading The Weight of Me

awkward · blogging · humor · socially awkward · weird · writing

5 Socially Awkward Things

For better or worse, I got through today. Along the way some random (and maybe embarrassing?) stuff happened. Oh well because I’m socially awkward. Owning up to this part of myself feels lighthearted and funny because I can see the humor in the situations I was in. It’s so drastically different from how I feel…… Continue reading 5 Socially Awkward Things

anxiety · coping mechanisms · flight or fight · overthinking things · social anxiety · writing

Coping Well And/Or Badly

I don’t know where to start. It’s 12:34 AM as I am typing this very sentence. Whenever something happens that affects me, of course I feel shaken up by this thing called life. I’m sure it’s similar for other people, even though it is truly impossible to live in another person’s shoes because each person’s…… Continue reading Coping Well And/Or Badly

anxiety · Email · Hopes and fears · Thoughts and feelings · writing

Hint of Desperation

Coming up with a polite, cordial inquiry via email was easy peasy. The hard part was rewording stuff as to not sound too desperate with the things I was asking about in text format. Now the email has gone out and there’s no taking it back. In the same second I exhaled a breath, that…… Continue reading Hint of Desperation

anxiety · Email · perception · Thoughts and feelings · writing

Confirmation

“Yes, I’ll be there,” I typed before adding a 🙂 at the end of the sentence after the period. Ha. What a futile attempt at faking calm. Despite how casual and put together I made myself seem in email format, behind the computer screen I was losing it. How easy it was to pretend it…… Continue reading Confirmation

high school tropes · school life · tropes · writing

High School Tropes

Growing up, the tropes I saw on television and movies in reference to the high school experience was not always true to real life. Schools shown in popular media, whether they are a fictional school or a real one, seem way cooler and more interesting, especially the times I’ve gotten invested in the lives of…… Continue reading High School Tropes

memories · mental health · shyness · social anxiety

Shy Problems or Social Anxiety Problems? 😳

I was a reasonably shy kid. Although I have spoken about my social anxiety struggles on this blog, the one thing I am sure of is that shyness is not the same as social anxiety, although they can be interrelated. I am no expert on the scientific findings of these two things, so instead I…… Continue reading Shy Problems or Social Anxiety Problems? 😳