overthinking things · people · social anxiety · socially awkward

Overthinking Things

The hardest thing about social anxiety is the spotlight effect where I feel overwhelmed by having all the attention on me and attempting to blast through it. I don’t know why it has always been a focal point for as long as I can remember since my childhood days and I care so much about…… Continue reading Overthinking Things

jobs · ramblings · spring · Thoughts and feelings · weather

Spring Vibes & Work Headaches

Oh, the wonders that come from leaving my window open for the whole day today and not being cold! I haven’t felt this warm in a long time. It’s not quite tanktop weather yet though I changed out of my hoodie sweater from yesterday. The process for acclimating my plants to the new temperatures is…… Continue reading Spring Vibes & Work Headaches

anxiety · audio blog post · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Mental Mind Games

I may be turning over a new leaf in life. Or at least I feel compelled this week to try my hardest to think positively and hope my positive energies will translate into positive actions. I don’t know how long I will keep up with these audio readings of my blog posts. I still don’t…… Continue reading Mental Mind Games

anxiety · public speaking · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Speaking Nerves

This post will be kind of different. If you clicked the audio link within this post, you’ll hear my voice reading along with what is written here. I’m in the midst of recovering from a cold and have been especially prone lately to an itchy throat that comes out as a dry cough. I hope…… Continue reading Speaking Nerves

anxiety · being social · ramblings · social anxiety · socially awkward · weather

Weathering Through It

I underdressed for work on Sunday because I underestimated the forecast which said temperatures were in the mid-50’s. It felt 10 degrees colder because of the constant wind, and I definitely got the bite of it from working outdoors. I suppose I was winded from that, so even though I wore more layers under my…… Continue reading Weathering Through It

about me · Comfort zone · family · personal growth · verbal communication

Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

anxiety · gardening · school · social anxiety

High-Low-High-Low

Why does this keep happening to me?? The more social interactions I have, the more I have for reflecting upon at the end of my day. Those reflections don’t usually occur until I’ve had time to settle in at home after dinner with a shower and a change of clothes. Then I have adequate space…… Continue reading High-Low-High-Low

Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

anxiety · Coping with anxiety · mental health · people problems · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Anxious Mind + Hated Habits

I walked for 19,430 steps today. Most of those steps were done after work in the afternoon once I had time to eat lunch and rest and save up enough energy to walk to my heart’s content. I visited a special house in the neighborhood that is somewhat known for its architectural style that resembles…… Continue reading Anxious Mind + Hated Habits

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest