I must have been gone too long from this blog because I saw I got a lot of recent follows from what seems like spam blogs. Ugh. I’ve been here and there but still moving along in life. Or trying to, at least. Most days, I feel as if I just have too many thoughts…… Continue reading I Don’t Even Know Anymore
Nighttime has come; the end of another day gone. I’m tired; it seems my body habitually goes into low battery mode after a stressful event. Hours ago I met with a professor on Zoom to discuss a possible research project idea that I am interested in pursuing under his mentorship. I have never been this…… Continue reading Another Day Gone
This is how I have been feeling frequently. The maintenance, the upkeep, the pushing ahead. Life has always been a checklist of things I need to do every day. “Just keep going”, “It gets better in time”, “All that matters is you did your best”. Do phrases like these actually help you get through your…… Continue reading Why Is It So Hard?
My posts continue to be melancholic. I feel like I have been in a haze. Self-preservation is an innate instinct and that’s what I’ve been trying to do. Just surviving somehow. My physical and mental health took some hits during the stay-at-home order. I think I still am suffering, maybe from the aftereffects, even though…… Continue reading Sinking or Swimming
I really wish I could crawl into a hole and die. Right now in this moment, this expression fits how I feel, even though it is quite drastic and is even dangerous sounding. I just hate coming out of a social situation that I tried to deal with and now all I can do is…… Continue reading Social Setback
Wow I haven’t checked WordPress in weeks, except to give a random like to a passing post I enjoyed reading for 5 minutes or reply to a comment someone left me on my blog. I don’t really have a negative or positive opinion for my absence. Life goes on everywhere. There was a time in…… Continue reading Checking In After An Absence
I would sure like to be uplifting and positive but mostly I am in a “meh” mood. A pandemic can sure change day-to-day life. It’s been like 3 weeks under this stay-at-home order and I really wish it was over. It’s now mandatory in the state of New York to wear a facial mask outdoors.…… Continue reading Staying At Home
I’ve not gone out in the last 3-4 days. That’s an estimate since I lost count as the days are slowly blending into one another. The only real schedule I am on is the days and times I have my online classes from Mondays to Thursdays. Most of my courses still meet virtually (on Blackboard…… Continue reading Get Through This
I swear I did not set out to come up with a blog post title that coincidentally is the same title of a well-known Taylor Swift song. Though I can’t seem to stop listening to Getaway Car lately… but that’s a story for another time. It’s easy to deem that I can think myself into…… Continue reading Ready for It
I was angry yesterday. About what; to explain seems inconsequential now. I’ll say that my anxiety was involved (as usual) because when is my anxiety not involved in my life? That rage burned so hot I thought it would never end. I had too many thoughts running in my mind, buzzing like a beehive. I…… Continue reading Unfiltered
