about me · Comfort zone · family · personal growth · verbal communication

Going Beyond the Limit

A very recent conversation with my coworker Adele gave me a lot of clarity about how much I don’t need to be limited by whatever influence or control my parents are trying to exert over me. This is a tricky topic to delve into. A lot of parents apparently “mean well” for their children but…… Continue reading Going Beyond the Limit

anxiety · gardening · school · social anxiety

High-Low-High-Low

Why does this keep happening to me?? The more social interactions I have, the more I have for reflecting upon at the end of my day. Those reflections don’t usually occur until I’ve had time to settle in at home after dinner with a shower and a change of clothes. Then I have adequate space…… Continue reading High-Low-High-Low

Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

anxiety · Coping with anxiety · mental health · people problems · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Anxious Mind + Hated Habits

I walked for 19,430 steps today. Most of those steps were done after work in the afternoon once I had time to eat lunch and rest and save up enough energy to walk to my heart’s content. I visited a special house in the neighborhood that is somewhat known for its architectural style that resembles…… Continue reading Anxious Mind + Hated Habits

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest

feelings · friends · friendship · fun · fun in the sun · self-confidence

Trying New Things

I haven’t written this frequently on this blog in quite some time. It wasn’t a conscious decision to start posting more often again. It’s more like the words are spontaneously coming to me and if I feel like writing, then I will. I had one heck of a day working outdoors in NYC while temperatures…… Continue reading Trying New Things

anxiety · life · ramblings · relationships · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Jumping Through a Day

I hacked off several inches of my hair two days earlier. I have not gone to the salon in years and to this day I refuse to. I hate being waited on like that and I certainly don’t like having a stranger touch me even if it’s strictly professional and not sexual in any way.…… Continue reading Jumping Through a Day

anxiety · life · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Battle of the Mind

I’ve had a lot of days lately. Good days. Bad days. Okay days. And a few sleepless nights. I used to be quite resistant to taking naps during the daytime, but now I nap when I feel like I need a quick recharge. I had a difficult workday two Saturdays ago when it was BLAZING…… Continue reading Battle of the Mind

Comfort zone · Conflicting emotions · life · Thoughts and feelings

What To Feel

I made it through the hard-biting winter and am enjoying the warmness of almost summer. I opted not to enroll in any college courses during the Spring 2022 semester because I had too much going on with work and other things. I didn’t want to take on more than I could handle at the time.…… Continue reading What To Feel

about me · anxiety · interview anxiety · jobs · Thoughts and feelings

Pressure Points

I had little to no motivation to do much of anything today. Daylight Savings Time just ended, and that means that one hour ahead on the clock makes it seem like the hours of daylight in the afternoon are shorter. I hate how time is out of my control and keeps moving, whether I feel…… Continue reading Pressure Points