I walked for 19,430 steps today. Most of those steps were done after work in the afternoon once I had time to eat lunch and rest and save up enough energy to walk to my heart’s content. I visited a special house in the neighborhood that is somewhat known for its architectural style that resembles…… Continue reading Anxious Mind + Hated Habits
On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest
I’ve had a lot of days lately. Good days. Bad days. Okay days. And a few sleepless nights. I used to be quite resistant to taking naps during the daytime, but now I nap when I feel like I need a quick recharge. I had a difficult workday two Saturdays ago when it was BLAZING…… Continue reading Battle of the Mind
This is how I have been feeling frequently. The maintenance, the upkeep, the pushing ahead. Life has always been a checklist of things I need to do every day. “Just keep going”, “It gets better in time”, “All that matters is you did your best”. Do phrases like these actually help you get through your…… Continue reading Why Is It So Hard?
November 26th is my birthday but to me, I will probably treat it as a normal day. If I really think about it, every day is someone’s birthday somewhere in the world. It’s dreadful being asked what I want as a present/gift. The question makes me feel like I am being put on the spot.…… Continue reading Growing a Year Older
My brain goes through a nonstop cycle of thinking. I had a somewhat morbid thought last night after I switched off my lamp and settled into a comfortable stillness under my blankets: that it’s impossible for my mind to stop being active even during sleep, unless I died and my brain shut down permanently. It’s…… Continue reading Thoughts and More Thoughts
I am a weird place in life. Are you? As usual, I can’t outrun the chaos inside my own mind. Sometimes a little bit of that is good, or bad depending on the kind it is. Not sure which I have today. I am there and I am not, in the sense I don’t feel…… Continue reading Floating By
Life is chaos. The times I have been completely at ease, content in being where I am with no rush or disturbance knocking at my door, are few and far between. Sometimes that utter euphoria lasts seconds, or minutes, or just an hour or two. It’s nice to have those moments where I forget who…… Continue reading Recall the Moment
As a child, I played house all the time with my Barbie dolls. I had several lifesize baby dolls and I carried around one of them with me everywhere. I liked cradling the doll like a real baby and feeding her a fake bottle to mimic pseudo milk going into her plastic mouth but that…… Continue reading No Kids For Me
I am alive. And well (for the most part). That much is true. I am not trying to be edgy or cool by being cryptic on purpose. This isn’t the hook to draw in more views on my blog or get people to follow me, in case you were wondering. As I composed this post,…… Continue reading The 2 Ls of My Life
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