I don’t really know where I am going with this post or what kind of main idea I am putting out this time. I almost wanted to write, “To be honest, this week was hard and I was not at my best”, but who am I kidding? Every day is imperfect, with some days being…… Continue reading Bodily Tolerance
Eye contact. Something so simple but it scares the bejesus out of me. The initial moment of having a pair of eyes set on me and then stay on me is horrific. You’d think I might be used to it after seeing people for the 27 years of my life so far. I can sketch…… Continue reading The Horrors of Eye Contact and Verbal Exchanges
Man, I feel like an idiot. Last week I received a phone call from another job I applied for. The manager left me a voice mail asking me to call her back. I made myself do the right thing by calling back the next day but she was not there. Then Friday I was so…… Continue reading Missed Opportunity
I have always been super self-conscious about my own voice. The worst is how self-conscious I feel when I talk to someone in the presence of other people or knowing that other people around me are listening as I talk. Result? My voice usually comes out lower than I had hoped for due to the…… Continue reading Being Heard By Others
Work on Monday was not horrible. My heart rate still spiked every single time the phone rang. Within half a second of hearing the trill of the phone, I was bombarded with instant dread and apprehension of something awful happening if I picked up the phone. Several times I managed to make quick work of…… Continue reading What To Do?
Well, it happened. I had an anxiety blow-up that cumulated with me crying in the work office. This came about after I answered the work phone and I was in a panic for almost every time I picked up the phone. One of my co-workers was advising me to speak louder because everyone in the…… Continue reading Second Day of Work Meltdown
The cycle of anxiety goes a little something like this for me: 1) Be faced with a situation that makes me anxious 2) Struggle internally over getting the situation done and over with ASAP, but ultimately, 7 times out of 10 I will choose to avoid the problem. 3) Spend the next few days or…… Continue reading No End To Anxiety
I feel like shit. These past few days I’ve progressively felt worse and worse to the point all I see is negativity in my life, with nothing positive about anything I’ve accomplished. Every perceived failure or wrong action I’ve had thus far is like adding more weight to my assortment of things to be depressed…… Continue reading Negativity is everywhere
I have social anxiety, but I also get anxiety over answering or making phone calls. My fear was once so great that I wouldn’t even answer the home phone or my own mobile phone if it rang, even if the caller i.d. showed the call was from someone I knew. Nowadays I can answer calls from…… Continue reading My phone phobia
I’m having one of my moody days, where I don’t feel motivated to do anything. I’m still actively job hunting, but since my last phone conversation with my career counselor, the hunt itself has almost come to a standstill. And I know it’s my fault. I try to send out my resume to at least…… Continue reading Lack of motivation, or something more?