about me · Coping with anxiety · life · mental health · therapy

The Good and the Bad

I wish I could say that I felt inspired to write a post right at this moment because I have positive vibes and nothing but great things to share. That’s not it. Instead I felt the itch to write because I am in a bad mood and desperately wanted/needed some kind of outlet to get…… Continue reading The Good and the Bad

about me · dysfunctional · family · life · mental health · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Echoes of the Past

Some days I think I am over it. Other days I relive the past in my mind and it’s like getting sucked into a vortex of pain, anger, and sadness. Several nights as of late I’ve fallen into this mindset and been insomniac. It would be easier on myself to just look to the future…… Continue reading Echoes of the Past

about me · anxiety · school life · social anxiety

Conundrum of Life

Hi again. I am still here. I’ve opened WordPress a few times since my last post with ideas of what to write. I decided against it. I remember some of my old, old posts from when I first started WordPress and it’s embarrassing how hard I tried, through my depression and anxiety, to be positive.…… Continue reading Conundrum of Life

about me · anxiety · mental health · school anxiety · social anxiety

A Single Moment

Trigger warning: Mentions of suicide and suicidal thoughts (towards the end of the blog post). You know the feeling when life gives you problem after problem and it starts to pile up because they’re issues you can’t solve right away but you’re trying to hold it all together and not lose your s**t? And then…… Continue reading A Single Moment

emotions · feelings · life · memories · mental health · Thoughts and feelings

Spots in My Memory

I am a frequent user of the Spotify app on my phone. I love that the program allows me to create custom playlists of songs I enjoy. While I typically use Spotify on my phone, I also have it on my desktop computer. Yesterday I happened to have it open while I was busy on…… Continue reading Spots in My Memory

anxiety · flight or fight · life · mental health · people

Unfiltered

I was angry yesterday. About what; to explain seems inconsequential now. I’ll say that my anxiety was involved (as usual) because when is my anxiety not involved in my life? That rage burned so hot I thought it would never end. I had too many thoughts running in my mind, buzzing like a beehive. I…… Continue reading Unfiltered

anxiety · depression · mental health · social anxiety

Infinitely Moody 😐

I feel like sh*t. Many things could be the reason why I want to fly off the handle or generally want to give up on life and stop giving a f*ck about everything and anything. I honestly don’t know what is normal and what isn’t anymore. I just finished watching the HBO series Euphoria. The…… Continue reading Infinitely Moody 😐

anxiety · Conflicting emotions · depression · Hopes and fears · life · mental health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Haze of Sadness

I am unable to describe what is wrong with me. Is there anything wrong, actually, or is my mental health tipping back and forth as it is for everyone else out there? The dips in my mood come and go. I just can’t figure out if it’s: A) Self-confidence issues about my future and all…… Continue reading Haze of Sadness

about me · anxiety · bad habits · dermatillomania · mental health · pain · trichotillomania

Bad Habits

Where is the line in the sand between a bad habit and concerning behavior that starts to impact how I live? I have a habit that might be considered disgusting and also harmful to myself. Only I didn’t think of it as actually harmful until today when I was called out for it. I am…… Continue reading Bad Habits