Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt
I think I had too much coffee yesterday afternoon so the caffeine is still circulating in my system. Voila, I am insomniac and wide awake! I’ve reached that point in the college semester where everything feels like I am trying to hold it all together but I am also so burnt out from the endless…… Continue reading A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta
Wow I haven’t checked WordPress in weeks, except to give a random like to a passing post I enjoyed reading for 5 minutes or reply to a comment someone left me on my blog. I don’t really have a negative or positive opinion for my absence. Life goes on everywhere. There was a time in…… Continue reading Checking In After An Absence
I really don’t know how some people can juggle so much in their lives at once. I, on the other hand, feel like my ability to handle so much at once has taken a nosedive the older I get. I don’t know what I am anymore. Have I truly lived? Do I want to, and…… Continue reading Meant to Be
November 26th is my birthday but to me, I will probably treat it as a normal day. If I really think about it, every day is someone’s birthday somewhere in the world. It’s dreadful being asked what I want as a present/gift. The question makes me feel like I am being put on the spot.…… Continue reading Growing a Year Older
I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me
I feel like sh*t. Many things could be the reason why I want to fly off the handle or generally want to give up on life and stop giving a f*ck about everything and anything. I honestly don’t know what is normal and what isn’t anymore. I just finished watching the HBO series Euphoria. The…… Continue reading Infinitely Moody 😐
Many years ago, when the daily struggle of functioning on a basic level was harder then than it is now, I remember looking at myself in the mirror. I didn’t like what I saw. I was still picking at my facial scabs quite often at the time. My reconstruction of this memory may be a…… Continue reading Never Good Enough
It’s frustrating to feel like every step I’ve taken to try to pull myself from the rut I’ve fallen into amounts to nothing. Again I am troubled by the present and finding it difficult to see past the temporary nature of my current problem. My mood has been teetering these past two weeks and it’s…… Continue reading Living in Fear
I am not up to par. My body and mind are unable to fully relax. I don’t want to make it sound as if my whole future hinges on this one particular issue I am waiting on, but right now it feels that way because of how much I want it. I hate this feeling;…… Continue reading Chaos in Waiting
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