feelings · Hopes and fears · life · life changes · ramblings

Reflecting on Self-Doubt

Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day. Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a…… Continue reading Reflecting on Self-Doubt

college days · daily · gardening · nature · plants · ramblings

A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

I think I had too much coffee yesterday afternoon so the caffeine is still circulating in my system. Voila, I am insomniac and wide awake! I’ve reached that point in the college semester where everything feels like I am trying to hold it all together but I am also so burnt out from the endless…… Continue reading A Brief Respite from Stress, Sorta

life · Physical health · ramblings · school life · Thoughts and feelings

Checking In After An Absence

Wow I haven’t checked WordPress in weeks, except to give a random like to a passing post I enjoyed reading for 5 minutes or reply to a comment someone left me on my blog. I don’t really have a negative or positive opinion for my absence. Life goes on everywhere. There was a time in…… Continue reading Checking In After An Absence

about me · birthday · ramblings

Growing a Year Older

November 26th is my birthday but to me, I will probably treat it as a normal day. If I really think about it, every day is someone’s birthday somewhere in the world. It’s dreadful being asked what I want as a present/gift. The question makes me feel like I am being put on the spot.…… Continue reading Growing a Year Older

anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

The Mess Inside Me

I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me

anxiety · depression · mental health · social anxiety

Infinitely Moody 😐

I feel like sh*t. Many things could be the reason why I want to fly off the handle or generally want to give up on life and stop giving a f*ck about everything and anything. I honestly don’t know what is normal and what isn’t anymore. I just finished watching the HBO series Euphoria. The…… Continue reading Infinitely Moody 😐

about me · anxiety · flaws · life · Perspective on life · wants

Never Good Enough

Many years ago, when the daily struggle of functioning on a basic level was harder then than it is now, I remember looking at myself in the mirror. I didn’t like what I saw. I was still picking at my facial scabs quite often at the time. My reconstruction of this memory may be a…… Continue reading Never Good Enough

about me · anxiety · Coping with anxiety · daily · Hopes and fears · life · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Living in Fear

It’s frustrating to feel like every step I’ve taken to try to pull myself from the rut I’ve fallen into amounts to nothing. Again I am troubled by the present and finding it difficult to see past the temporary nature of my current problem. My mood has been teetering these past two weeks and it’s…… Continue reading Living in Fear