anxiety · Comfort zone · overthinking things · people problems · ramblings · self-doubt · Thoughts and feelings

Self-Involved

I think I’m quite self-absorbed in my own problems. Perhaps everyone is to some extent? I find it incredible (in an admiring way) how some people have such busy and fast-paced things going on their lives and still manage to seem like they have it all together. My cousin just had a baby about a…… Continue reading Self-Involved

anxiety · college days · daily · life · overthinking things · Thoughts and feelings

Life Stressors

I’m contemplating visiting my professor during his office hours on Tuesday to talk to him about my discomfort with being back in a classroom around people after attending virtual-only courses for several semesters. I don’t know how exactly voicing my concerns to him will change anything. I’m unhappy the classroom itself is small and it…… Continue reading Life Stressors

anxiety · gardening · school · social anxiety

High-Low-High-Low

Why does this keep happening to me?? The more social interactions I have, the more I have for reflecting upon at the end of my day. Those reflections don’t usually occur until I’ve had time to settle in at home after dinner with a shower and a change of clothes. Then I have adequate space…… Continue reading High-Low-High-Low

Coping with anxiety · life changes · school life

Too Much At Once?

When I transferred to a four-year college in 2020, I had already completed two years’ worth of schooling under the general Liberal Arts degree. The school I transferred into had an Urban Sustainability program that I went for, and as a result, most of my completed credits were transferred in but I had additional classes…… Continue reading Too Much At Once?

about me · anxiety · Hopes and fears · mental health · perception · reflections · social anxiety · socially awkward

A Week’s Worth

I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth

Feeling ill · life changes · Physical health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

5 Days of Rest

On Thursday, I woke up with the worst sore throat ever. The feeling was like someone had stabbed my throat with a needle. It startled me so much I thought, This can’t be real, am I still dreaming? I was not. I quickly downed two cups of water, which was not enough to lessen the…… Continue reading 5 Days of Rest

feelings · friends · friendship · fun · fun in the sun · self-confidence

Trying New Things

I haven’t written this frequently on this blog in quite some time. It wasn’t a conscious decision to start posting more often again. It’s more like the words are spontaneously coming to me and if I feel like writing, then I will. I had one heck of a day working outdoors in NYC while temperatures…… Continue reading Trying New Things

anxiety · life · ramblings · relationships · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Jumping Through a Day

I hacked off several inches of my hair two days earlier. I have not gone to the salon in years and to this day I refuse to. I hate being waited on like that and I certainly don’t like having a stranger touch me even if it’s strictly professional and not sexual in any way.…… Continue reading Jumping Through a Day

life · life changes · perception · ramblings · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Rediscovery of Social Terrors

Every day I think about so many things. I never feel like I have enough time to write all of them down. At times, thinking so much exhausts me in a way I can’t adequately describe in words. If I could try to describe it, it’s like a fatigue from the physicality of the mental…… Continue reading Rediscovery of Social Terrors