anxiety · avoidance tendencies · social anxiety

The Mess Inside Me

I feel defeated. So many times during the hours, the weeks, the months, and the years of my life, the thought comes up that this life isn’t worth living. I know I am treading on thin ice with such a declaration. I’ve never been the optimistic sort of person. Every turn of my life scares…… Continue reading The Mess Inside Me

anxiety · depression · mental health · social anxiety

Infinitely Moody 😐

I feel like sh*t. Many things could be the reason why I want to fly off the handle or generally want to give up on life and stop giving a f*ck about everything and anything. I honestly don’t know what is normal and what isn’t anymore. I just finished watching the HBO series Euphoria. The…… Continue reading Infinitely Moody 😐

anxiety · Conflicting emotions · depression · Hopes and fears · life · mental health · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Haze of Sadness

I am unable to describe what is wrong with me. Is there anything wrong, actually, or is my mental health tipping back and forth as it is for everyone else out there? The dips in my mood come and go. I just can’t figure out if it’s: A) Self-confidence issues about my future and all…… Continue reading Haze of Sadness

blogging · depression · feelings · games · mental health · motivation · writing

RIP to Mobile Games

It seemed unimaginable that there might be a day when I would decide to say goodbye to mobile games forever. Some days ago, I did just that. No more Candy Crush, Farm Heroes Super Saga, or Cookie Jam on my phone. The trinity of 3-match games I have played on and off for these past…… Continue reading RIP to Mobile Games

anxiety · depression · family · life · mental health · social anxiety

I Look Happier?

Yesterday I saw and spoke with an aunt I have not seen for several months. I only found out that morning she was coming but when she didn’t arrive, I assumed her plans had changed. I didn’t ask either of my parents for clarification either and just felt relieved that I wouldn’t have to deal…… Continue reading I Look Happier?

anxiety · life · social anxiety

Negativity is everywhere

I feel like shit. These past few days I’ve progressively felt worse and worse to the point all I see is negativity in my life, with nothing positive about anything I’ve accomplished. Every perceived failure or wrong action I’ve had thus far is like adding more weight to my assortment of things to be depressed…… Continue reading Negativity is everywhere