Well, it happened. I had an anxiety blow-up that cumulated with me crying in the work office. This came about after I answered the work phone and I was in a panic for almost every time I picked up the phone. One of my co-workers was advising me to speak louder because everyone in the…… Continue reading Second Day of Work Meltdown
Seems like finally getting a job in real life has upped the ante for me in regards to the number of blog posts I’ve put out recently. It’s definitely not a marketing strategy, I can promise you that. If I could work full-time making a sustainable amount of money and chill at home doing basically…… Continue reading Perception Is Everything
I have no idea how to reflect on my first day of work now that I’m on the bus on my way home. It’s very true that being around people I don’t know and being with them for five hours today felt somewhat uncomfortable and awkward. I had to learn how to scan documents and…… Continue reading Not Without Struggles
My nerves have gone to hell in the night before my first day of work. Wtf. WTF. Am I actually doing this? My brain is going haywire. I am terrified! I slept poorly yesterday (4 hours) so I need the sleep tonight to at least be energized for work. The question is, will I be…… Continue reading It Doesn’t Always Happen As I Think It Will… Or Will It?
It is hard to describe my state of mind right now. I feel quite fired up thinking about the kind of “advice” my own parents gave me hours earlier. They think they’re helping me but they’re really not. Instead I feel belittled and almost as if they are treating me like a child or that…… Continue reading Problems with My Parents
Sometimes, in the comfort of my own room when I have time to think, I am able to step back from the anxiety I feel around people and examine it from a point of view outside of my own. It’s in these moments I actually feel silly for having social anxiety. Not silly as in…… Continue reading They’re Just People, Right?
The cycle of anxiety goes a little something like this for me: 1) Be faced with a situation that makes me anxious 2) Struggle internally over getting the situation done and over with ASAP, but ultimately, 7 times out of 10 I will choose to avoid the problem. 3) Spend the next few days or…… Continue reading No End To Anxiety