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Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

My biological age is 29. I haven’t learned to do all the things I thought I would know to do by now. On an emotional level, I feel I stopped aging appropriately at least 10 years ago. I do think I already had a host of issues starting from childhood. Many things were never resolved…… Continue reading Down the Rabbit Hole of Childhood

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The Horrors of Eye Contact and Verbal Exchanges

Eye contact. Something so simple but it scares the bejesus out of me. The initial moment of having a pair of eyes set on me and then stay on me is horrific. You’d think I might be used to it after seeing people for the 27 years of my life so far. I can sketch…… Continue reading The Horrors of Eye Contact and Verbal Exchanges

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Life Reflections

I’ve been to just about nowhere in the last week or so. The days feel shorter, which I blame on the early sunsets. Very few people in my neighborhood put up Christmas decorations, though it’s a cheering sight to see one house turns on their Christmas lights once it gets dark out. I remember a…… Continue reading Life Reflections

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A Near Fainting Experience

This might be an odd topic to discuss. My posts are never all that polished and I generally write about whatever sparks my fancy. Out of all the thousands of thoughts that whizzed around in my head, one stood out to me. I’ve relived this memory many times before but for the first time today…… Continue reading A Near Fainting Experience

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No End To Anxiety

The cycle of anxiety goes a little something like this for me: 1) Be faced with a situation that makes me anxious 2) Struggle internally over getting the situation done and over with ASAP, but ultimately, 7 times out of 10 I will choose to avoid the problem. 3) Spend the next few days or…… Continue reading No End To Anxiety

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Call Me Maybe

I get terrible anxiety whenever I have to make phone calls, but I’m starting to think the trepidation of waiting for someone to call me back is even worse. No, it’s not that I assume I will be called, it’s that I expect it, especially since I left two voice messages and politely asked to be phoned back…… Continue reading Call Me Maybe

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My phone phobia

I have social anxiety, but I also get anxiety over answering or making phone calls. My fear was once so great that I wouldn’t even answer the home phone or my own mobile phone if it rang, even if the caller i.d. showed the call was from someone I knew. Nowadays I can answer calls from…… Continue reading My phone phobia