I’m stuck in a conundrum of not knowing if I’m doing too much in life right now or if I am not doing enough. I don’t know why I am making this a question. Everything and anything I am doing now should be more than enough. Aren’t I fine precisely as I am? Minutes earlier,…… Continue reading A Week’s Worth
This is a hard, hard topic. My household has never been a fit environment for pets. In childhood, my brother had tadpoles that lasted days in a tank before they died. My dad bought them for him knowing they wouldn’t last but he did it anyway just to satisfy my brother’s whims. I remember being…… Continue reading Mistakes About Pets
Who knew I would be here in 2019. Just a few days ago I was bubbling with excitement and trepidation over the vocational school I signed up for in the hopes of landing a job after graduation. I thought, This is it, I am finally doing something with my life. I’ve made a decision for…… Continue reading After the Storm
It’s the last day of 2018. I am excited and scared of being present for another 365 days done and over with, and of the anticipation of all the happiness and pain that may follow into 2019. I feel lost every year. I don’t know if I am as aimless as I was at the…… Continue reading Last Hooray of 2018
Today I turned another year older. Last night before midnight, I felt hyper aware of the minutes ticking down. It came and it happened. How many other people around the world also have the same birthdate as me, I wonder? The years of getting a cake and posing for photos in my best dress to…… Continue reading Birthdate / Birthday
My time in China is almost up!! Today I left the hotel in Xiamen to travel back to Beijing. Another 3-hour flight and then I’ll stay overnight at an airport hotel before boarding the plane for New York the next morning at 9 AM. Ugh I am not looking forward to the 13-hour flight to…… Continue reading New Experiences
I became near-sighted at a very young age. Vaguely, I have an almost memory (or an echo of a memory) of what it felt like to be able to see without having to wear glasses. The blurring of my sight obviously happened over a prolonged time but the memories I should have of the gradual…… Continue reading A Glasses Story
I can feel myself mentally shriveling into a corner every time my brain inadvertently replays an abominable memory that I wanted to never think about again. The clarity and sharpness of my memory recall gets to me. Why is it always the painful ones I remember so well? I am taken back to the bubble…… Continue reading Humiliating Memories
Yesterday was exhausting after I spent the whole day and into the evening with my family. I had a good time, although there were some rocky moments I’ll discuss in this post. My family doesn’t typically do anything for Christmas as sometimes convenience overtakes the desire to be festive and merry. But my brother happened…… Continue reading Blowing Things Out of Proportion
I’m nearly crushed under the weight I am holding up. When did this begin and when does it end? All I can do is wait. For how long? It’s not over yet. Fidgeting, twirling, bouncing on my feet. Any and every quirk to distract myself from wondering when the response will come. Until then, I…… Continue reading RRW #2: Waiting for an Answer
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