about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · life · melancholy · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

I am always waiting for something, it seems. I have spent half my life thinking and thinking of what could and will happen, rather than just doing it and let what becomes a reality be as it is without regret. “A tad obsessive” is the phrase I have in mind to describe the constant linger…… Continue reading Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

about me · depression · life · making choices · melancholy · mental health · mornings · sleep habits · Waking up · Writing prompt

Waking Up

Awakening from sleep is the oddest sensation ever. At first, it’s like I’m unable to fully take in what is happening and only through slowly regaining awareness of my surroundings, I realize I am waking up. I sleep with my covers over me, so many times I’ve woken up thinking it’s still dark out until…… Continue reading Waking Up

anxiety · family · life · melancholy · ramblings

What’s Wrong With Me?

I feel like a mess but I don’t want to throw myself a pity party. It’s okay to acknowledge when I am going through a bad time although wallowing is a definite no-no. I do not wish to go into specific details about the situation except that my parents are not speaking to each other…… Continue reading What’s Wrong With Me?

anxiety · life · melancholy · social anxiety

Everything I Do Feels Embarrassing 

This past day or so I’ve been fluctuating between restlessness and boredom, yet also debating back and forth if going out is worth it. It’s not helping one bit that it snowed quite a lot today. I can’t put all the blame on the shit weather as the reason why I’ve been staying in lately.…… Continue reading Everything I Do Feels Embarrassing 

daydreaming · life · melancholy

Wildest Dreams

Have you ever dreamt or thought about being a different person living another life in a faraway place? I sure have. I remember growing up in a very sheltered environment. My parents were first generation immigrants. They both emigrated from different countries, and it was after they were both in New York that they met…… Continue reading Wildest Dreams