The blog post title might be an odd one but it fits with the theme I was going for. I almost wrote “5 Failures” and changed it to “5 Fails” for a less harsh tone to reference the 5 things I feel I did not do well today at work. And then there is the…… Continue reading 5 Fails & 5 Focuses
Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?
I was not entirely content with myself. I have not been for several days now in crackles and spurts. Certainly, all that build up led to something boiling inside me. It churned to the point everything around me felt like a dull edge. A limp, colorless world. Yeah, I know the featured image on this…… Continue reading The Struggle & Release
Under Pressure. These are truly the two words that come to mind when I am not feeling well and for whatever reason I am compelled to pretend like I am completely fine. I don’t know when this behavior of mine started or why my mind decided to have such a routine that has become essential…… Continue reading Under Pressure
My aunt came over to stay last weekend. She’s one of my relatives who I’ve always liked so although my social anxiety nerves were twitching, I was sure I would be fine. After an early drive into New York from Jersey, she popped out to spend the day in Midtown Manhattan with an old college…… Continue reading Seafood Fanatic
Yesterday evening I had dinner with some rich folks in China. It was so not my comfort zone for a variety of reasons: I had to go over their house (before the dinner) I didn’t know them They spoke in a different dialect (which I don’t understand) Awkwardness Most of all, I know I tolerated…… Continue reading A Good Lie
It’s day 8 since I came to to Beijing, China for a 10-day vacation. I started writing this post yesterday while waiting for a flight to Xiamen. It only took 3 hours to get there, thankfully. Being part of a tour guide group for the first 5 days in China, the sights I saw were…… Continue reading Cultural Differences
I know I am a person capable of much even though I have anxiety. I get anxious over purportedly “dumb” things. I belittle myself in this way because of the many times I’ve been in the moment of being actively anxious and how stuck I am. I think, Why am I feeling anxiety over this?…… Continue reading Alone or Together
I have nostalgia for the Jurassic Park trilogy, especially since I have seen Jurassic World and am getting ready to watch Jurassic World: Fallen Kingdom in theaters today. It was great to rewatch the very first film which started the franchise. Despite how dated the quality and graphics were, the storyline and characters still held…… Continue reading Movie Scenes That Still Freak Me Out
Again and again, I’m proven wrong in my own assumptions. I let the situation play out. I let myself experience it. Huh, it’s not what I expected to happen, I think. But, again and again, when another challenging situation arises, my thinking pattern follows the same path as it did before. Expect the worst!, my…… Continue reading Bad Expectations
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