anxiety · social anxiety · socially awkward

Thoughts and More Thoughts

My brain goes through a nonstop cycle of thinking. I had a somewhat morbid thought last night after I switched off my lamp and settled into a comfortable stillness under my blankets: that it’s impossible for my mind to stop being active even during sleep, unless I died and my brain shut down permanently. It’s…… Continue reading Thoughts and More Thoughts

anxiety · depression · mental health · social anxiety

Infinitely Moody 😐

I feel like sh*t. Many things could be the reason why I want to fly off the handle or generally want to give up on life and stop giving a f*ck about everything and anything. I honestly don’t know what is normal and what isn’t anymore. I just finished watching the HBO series Euphoria. The…… Continue reading Infinitely Moody 😐

anxiety · challenges · life · life changes · personal growth · social anxiety

Out of Practice

I think all the time about poor choices I made 2, 3, even 4 years ago and how they impacted me in the long run. I feel weaker for all the things I ran from, and how if only I had pushed forward like I could have, I wouldn’t be in the position I am…… Continue reading Out of Practice

about me · anxiety · Conflicting emotions · life · melancholy · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

I am always waiting for something, it seems. I have spent half my life thinking and thinking of what could and will happen, rather than just doing it and let what becomes a reality be as it is without regret. “A tad obsessive” is the phrase I have in mind to describe the constant linger…… Continue reading Wishy-Washiness about Being Busy

about me · anxiety · school · school life · social anxiety

Stiff as a Board

Hey all. It’s been a challenging few weeks. I don’t know if I will ever fully adjust to this thing called life. I am almost at my last week in the hotel hospitality course. Today was a doozy. The course curriculum from the beginning till now has been building up and preparing me for my…… Continue reading Stiff as a Board

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · life · people · school life · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Highs & Lows

Last evening I trekked home during heavy rainfall in my area. It was such a monster storm that my socks and shoes got the brute of it I could hear squelching with every step I took. The lower portion of my pants were also oversaturated with water and the rain came down so hard it…… Continue reading Highs & Lows

anxiety · Comfort zone · daily · Hopes and fears · life · ramblings · school life · social anxiety

Excitement or Anxiety

It feels like too much adrenaline is still pumping in my veins from what I went through today. Even when good things happen to me, how my body responds to that stress is dizzying. I can’t tell the difference between the rush of excitement and anxiety. They feel close in similarity. Might be that I…… Continue reading Excitement or Anxiety