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Feeling Lost

I think I’ve always been a little lost. Since my youth, my self-confidence has been dismal. I was never the person to join clubs or involve myself in after school activities, all because I didn’t know how to talk to people. Or was too scared to try. During weekdays I had school as an excuse…… Continue reading Feeling Lost

about me · anxiety · challenges · family · flaws · Hopes and fears · life · parents · Thoughts and feelings · wishes

Messed Up on the Inside

For a long time now I have been alienating myself from those who care about me. Right now I feel so conflicted because I haven’t been totally honest with them. It’s true it is uncomfortable to have those sit-down talks with them because I didn’t grow up comfortable telling them everything and it got harder…… Continue reading Messed Up on the Inside

about me · anxiety · around the house · Conflicting emotions · dreams · family · friends · habits · Hopes and fears · insecurities · life · Mood swings · people · personal beliefs · social anxiety · social norms · socially awkward · solitude · Thoughts and feelings · verbal communication

Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

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Repetitive Dreaming

I thought I left this repetitive dream behind in 2018 because since the new year, I haven’t dreamt of it again. Until this morning. The dream always had an old feel to it. Nostalgia, perhaps, in a wretched way that was both a wish for things to have stayed as they were and for things…… Continue reading Repetitive Dreaming

dreams · life · ramblings · Thoughts and feelings

Weird Forgotten Dream

Being asleep is like drifting in midair not really feeling my actual physical body but the emotions and thoughts I experience are felt more intensely. Falling back asleep after waking up in the middle of the night is like being gently covered with a blanket, except I’m not aware of when the blanket goes on…… Continue reading Weird Forgotten Dream

blogging · dreams · writing

Recurring Dreams I’ve Had

I don’t know how to read my dreams or understanding the meaning behind the recurring ones I have had throughout different periods in my life. As a teenager, I messed around on the internet on some “dream interpretation” website, which had a blank box I could write details about my dream and then click a…… Continue reading Recurring Dreams I’ve Had

imagination · inspiration · magic spell · writing

A Magic Spell

This was fun to write. 🙂 My magic spell for: Seeing into one of my past incarnations. In my heart and in my mind I’ve always wondered about other times In a different era when my life was just as fine For better or for worse No matter what Be it a blessing or curse…… Continue reading A Magic Spell

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Sound of Silence

Under the right circumstances, I find silence to be calming if my heart is at ease and I’m content with whatever is going on in my day. Sometimes I make my own silence if I’m in an environment where there is mild background noise and it is easy to tune out. Giving myself a moment…… Continue reading Sound of Silence

friendship · humor · imagination · mirror · self-confidence · self-esteem · Talking to strangers · Writing prompt

Mirror, Mirror On The Wall…

If a mirror suddenly started speaking to me, I would (without a doubt) jump back in alarm, wondering why there is a complete stranger’s voice coming from inside my bathroom. Better yet, if I were in the middle of brushing my teeth as the voice of the mirror is speaking to me, I think I…… Continue reading Mirror, Mirror On The Wall…

imagination · mystery · surprise · Writing prompt

What’s In The Box?

Maybe I am just too cautious for my own good, but I cannot imagine myself opening a box that I happen to find somewhere. Naturally, I would not touch an item like that, in fear that there is something dangerous inside. But for the sake of this prompt, let’s say whatever is in the box…… Continue reading What’s In The Box?