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Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

Gosh, I am in trouble. When the writing bug hits, I can’t let it go until it’s finished. Fair warning though, this is somewhat of an ugly topic. I know every family has skeletons in their closet. We’re all a product of the environments we grew up in. My family is no exception from this…… Continue reading Abuse, Trauma, or Both?

about me · body image · dysfunctional · family · food · habits · personal beliefs · Thoughts and feelings

Cultural Views of Food

This might seem like a topic that has come out of nowhere, but truly, it’s been a subject matter that’s been on my mind for a long time. Because of the complexity of the issue and how food interrelates to other things like body image and culture, I wasn’t sure how to talk about it.…… Continue reading Cultural Views of Food

anxiety · children · family · parents · personal beliefs

No Kids For Me

As a child, I played house all the time with my Barbie dolls. I had several lifesize baby dolls and I carried around one of them with me everywhere. I liked cradling the doll like a real baby and feeding her a fake bottle to mimic pseudo milk going into her plastic mouth but that…… Continue reading No Kids For Me

about me · anxiety · flaws · life · Perspective on life · wants

Never Good Enough

Many years ago, when the daily struggle of functioning on a basic level was harder then than it is now, I remember looking at myself in the mirror. I didn’t like what I saw. I was still picking at my facial scabs quite often at the time. My reconstruction of this memory may be a…… Continue reading Never Good Enough

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Disinterest in Other People

I would not go as far to say I don’t have a desire for human interaction, or that I believe forming online friendships is enough for me. It’s more like I am disconnected from the relationships I “should” be having based on what I see other people around me have. I don’t know if that…… Continue reading Disinterest in Other People

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Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

Sigh. This post is like a huge garage dump for all my conflicted thoughts on several interrelated matters. I revised the title like 3 times already because I kept delving into other topics from the one topic I wanted to write about. Sometimes it feels like the gap in the generational and cultural differences between…… Continue reading Mixed Feelings about Race, Language, and People

anxiety · life · Perspective on life · social anxiety · Thoughts and feelings

Sleepless & Struggling

I’ve been here before. I lost count in the last month of how many times I’ve been sleepless. Either I can sleep but wake up earlier before taking a while to fall back asleep. Or I can’t sleep a wink after being in bed for hours, yet I’m too stubborn to give up and just…… Continue reading Sleepless & Struggling

anxiety · blogging · daily · life · Perspective on life · writing

Living in the Present

I have no real wise words to share about what it means to live in the present moment. Every passing second counts as the present because there is no stasis of being frozen and unchanged. Time rolls on with or without me being up to par with it and moving to its constant beat. Even…… Continue reading Living in the Present

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Deleting Facebook?

I have thought about what might happen if I deleted my Facebook account. I would no longer have easy access to photos, updates, and communication with people on my friends list. That would be of little consequence to me as I can only count on one hand how many “friends” I might actually be afraid…… Continue reading Deleting Facebook?