Coming home after a long workday, the adrenaline rush still hasn’t quite settled yet. I’m too awake and I keep replaying in my mind the day’s events and my actions from throughout the day.
Very recently I tried out for a different job role at the same company I currently work for. It was a virtual interview with two managers at the same time. I had hoped to be hired for the role because the job position was in the exact location of one of my work sites. I didn’t get hired. It was initially disappointing but later I concluded it wasn’t meant to be. I thought the managers had hired another person, only to find out they were having different employees fill the position every week until they could find a suitable person. Then I became more acquainted with a girl, Adele, who expressed interest in working in the same company I am in. I mentioned the job to her and she ended up snagging an interview with the managers. And she was hired!
I’m glad I was able to help her, especially since she mentioned she just graduated from college and needed to find a job at some point because her savings wouldn’t last forever. We’ve exchanged some work-related messages on LinkedIn.
Today Adele wrote to me about how I really seem to be doing what I love instead of my job just being a job for money. She even called me an inspiration. That surprised me. I’m always self-doubting myself. Even times when I feel sure, there is that 1% of me that is not sure. I look at other people I know in real life and perceive they have it all together. Maybe they do have it all together but no one has it all together all the time.
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