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Last Hooray of 2018

It’s the last day of 2018. I am excited and scared of being present for another 365 days done and over with, and of the anticipation of all the happiness and pain that may follow into 2019.

I feel lost every year. I don’t know if I am as aimless as I was at the beginning of 2018, 2017, or 2016.

My future got a little bit clearer towards the end of this year, but only just a bit as I got a little less cowardly and even now nothing is etched in stone. I can still change things or go back on my word. Switch around my actions. Take on things with a different mindset. Say something more carefully than what I had in mind.

It’s stuff like this that has me wondering if the approach can vary but the destination of where it will lead me will always be the same. If not the same, maybe it’s destiny or fate. Not fated to be like I am moving with an invisible string tied to me leading me to where I must inevitably go but fated to be as if what happened was going to happen because I am me and I can’t be alive without making choices and decisions without some kind of outcome occurring. A reaction from an action.

I have no top list for all my “best life hits” I have of 2018. I look back on the photos on my phone album. Most of them from up to May I used on some of my written posts from back then. Many that I didn’t show were because they were so random or I didn’t have a reason to share them.

Pictures can tell a story. They can be a record of a memory, a reflection. To me they’re imprints of things I found interesting enough to photograph in the hopes of retaining images of them long after I no longer can see the real thing in front of me. Other times they were a photographic necessity, a chore to snap and edit as to attract potential buyers. I am not a frequent eBay seller but this year I sold a number of used products on that website, mostly electronics and tools. It was tedious work. Not fun at all. I just wanted to get rid of the items. I had such trouble finding literally anyone to buy a Samsung tablet I barely used (which was almost brand new!) that I ended up giving it away for free to a friend.

Anyway, enough of my rambling. This post may seem like a sh*tpost since I seem to be talking about everything and nothing at the same time. Well, it’s the end of the year. Partially I feel the weight of that and the obligation of doing something to acknowledge it, but on the other hand I hate what looks like a backlog of photos I meant to share but I really don’t want to do individual posts for them. So why not do it here? It’s not really about showcasing my best moments but they are moments I enjoyed, whether it was the situation or thing captured on film and whether it was for a seriously happy or downright silly reason.

An amazingly decorated house from the annual Dyker Heights Christmas Lights spectacular.
A cute bag I saw at Marshall’s that I regret not buying. 😢 It was sold out weeks later when I went back to look again lol.
A gradient puzzle I completed with my mom and brother. It took us like 5 hours! I mostly worked on the black pieces because the white ones were too hard to piece together.
A light display from Snug Harbor’s Winter Lantern Festival. They had light displays for each animal in the Chinese zodiac but I liked the snake best (because I was born in the year of the snake, of course!).
The Christmas tree at Rockefeller Center! I went the day before Christmas and it was very crowded there, ugh. But seeing the tree was nice.
A reindeer decoration at Tanger mall outlet.
This experience was awesome. I have never been in a diner-style restaurant before and it was small but cozy inside! I was too shy with the employees looking my way to take photos of the interior though.
Pika power at the Nintendo store in NYC.
Old photo from mid-November by the sea. Someone used chalk to draw this but I suppose it’s been there for a while since it’s a bit faded from constantly being splashed with sea water.
I’ve never watched Despicable Me although I know these creatures are called minions. This is actually a mural someone made on their house garage. It’s very cute!
What I ate for Christmas dinner! It’s called a “hot pot” where both vegetables and meats/seafood (or only veggies, if you are vegan) can be added in a pot to cook and everyone can scoop out (or pick out, if you use chopsticks) whatever they want onto their own plate. It’s delicious!
And for the big finish, this is one half of a pair of earrings I wore today. I know it looks strange to only show my ear partially but wasn’t feeling up for a selfie today, sorry.

Happy New Year and whatever comes, I will overcome (I hope).

11 thoughts on “Last Hooray of 2018

  1. 1. Your “rambling” about your life, and about your actions/ words and destination, faith really made me think. It’s a deep subject, and there is no sure answer. Just know that your life being flexible is better than a hard life etched in stone.
    2. I got an ad in the mail the other day, and it was about a restaurant serving “hot pots”. I’ve never really had it, but I always wanted to try. It looks so appetizing.
    3. The gradient puzzle… I almost bought it as a gift for the whole family for Christmas, but then I realized it would probably make us all mad.

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    1. 1. Good advice! I always like to hear other people’s viewpoints on things like this. I do think the future is in my hands. I just don’t know where I am going yet lol. Life is a game I’m not good at!

      2. Hot pots are great. 🙂 There are a lot of food varieties you can eat in a hot pot. Some people like to add flavoring to the water or use different sauces for dipping the cooked foods into.

      3. Yes, the puzzle was crazy!! My eyes felt terrible after staring at so many white and black pieces for so long…

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