The answer to the post title is… Everywhere, and nowhere. I didn’t do anything life-changing. I just went on with my days since my last post on November 4th. I’m half-tempted to do one of those “What I’ve been up to lately” posts but I don’t know if that feels right.
I’m not sure if I want to say I’m “back” in the blogging world. Technically, I probably never left; just that I don’t have a set schedule for my posts anymore, so not posting for however many days of my choosing is not weird to me. Though this is the first time in a while that I’ve not posted for more than a week and that made me self-conscious of my own absence.
Blogging is not my side gig, personal project, or job/career aspiration. I don’t make a cent from my posts and I’m not sure I ever want to. But it has become a past time I use as a hobby. It’s been a constant in my life for the past year or so. What I didn’t expect was to feel guilty; not because I haven’t been posting but I wasn’t as interested in engaging with other bloggers as I usually do on days when I don’t post. By engaging, I mean checking out the Reader section, reading recent posts from people I follow and leaving comments in response to what they wrote. I wasn’t in the mood, and I didn’t want to feed into my own fears that by being away I was “missing out”. Still, I felt bad that I wasn’t “maintaining” my usual habits, almost like I was letting people down. Is it bad to feel bad?
I’m not tired of WordPress. Maybe I am just burned out, as it may be a common occurrence bloggers face? I never really have a “game plan” when I write and publish a new post. I don’t expect to make waves on the internet with some of the topics I’ve written about. If anything, it’s kinda freaked me out when I googled my WordPress name and it actually turned up on the search engine. How does something like that even get there? o.o