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Where I’ve Been?

The answer to the post title is… Everywhere, and nowhere. I didn’t do anything life-changing. I just went on with my days since my last post on November 4th. I’m half-tempted to do one of those “What I’ve been up to lately” posts but I don’t know if that feels right.

I’m not sure if I want to say I’m “back” in the blogging world. Technically, I probably never left; just that I don’t have a set schedule for my posts anymore, so not posting for however many days of my choosing is not weird to me. Though this is the first time in a while that I’ve not posted for more than a week and that made me self-conscious of my own absence.

Blogging is not my side gig, personal project, or job/career aspiration. I don’t make a cent from my posts and I’m not sure I ever want to. But it has become a past time I use as a hobby. It’s been a constant in my life for the past year or so. What I didn’t expect was to feel guilty; not because I haven’t been posting but I wasn’t as interested in engaging with other bloggers as I usually do on days when I don’t post. By engaging, I mean checking out the Reader section, reading recent posts from people I follow and leaving comments in response to what they wrote. I wasn’t in the mood, and I didn’t want to feed into my own fears that by being away I was “missing out”. Still, I felt bad that I wasn’t “maintaining” my usual habits, almost like I was letting people down. Is it bad to feel bad?

I’m not tired of WordPress. Maybe I am just burned out, as it may be a common occurrence bloggers face? I never really have a “game plan” when I write and publish a new post. I don’t expect to make waves on the internet with some of the topics I’ve written about. If anything, it’s kinda freaked me out when I googled my WordPress name and it actually turned up on the search engine. How does something like that even get there? o.o

11 thoughts on “Where I’ve Been?

  1. I just googled my blog and found nothing that pertains to me. It’s sad. So good for you.
    I think the burn out happens to all of us. I felt like that, too – on and off for the past couple of months. However, as of right now, I seem to be over that. Whatever happens, make sure that it’s something you’re ok with. You don’t have to blog, but if it’s something that makes you feel a certain way, then maybe you should keep pushing, even if you don’t “feel like it” at the moment.

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  2. Aww Nat, I am in the exact same flow.
    Partly because I don’t have internet, but where there is a will, there is a way.
    But the will was not really there!
    I feel drained too.
    Even when I write a post, I don’t care about the amount of likes.
    that coming from me, means something serious! Haha

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  3. Aw don’t feel guilty at all. I’ve been like that for a long time. I felt guilty not checking our my reader section, as well, because I like to support the bloggers I follow and leave comments, but I was just not in the mood to check in to WordPress for a while. Now I’m slowly getting back at it. It’s always okay to take time for yourself to recharge 🙂 Blogging is like having a relationship–gotta give some space at times to keep the love alive!

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    1. Yep, it’s better to not force things with WordPress when you’re not in the mood. I never want to feel obligated to read and comment if it starts feeling like a chore, I want to be excited and interested when I’m there!

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