I sent out my resume to a job ad on Craigslist this morning and received a reply some minutes later telling me to come in for an interview tomorrow at 10 AM.
Yep, that’s what my gut reaction was. In the past, I went through a vicious cycle of wanting a job and sending my resume out to many ads, but when I would get a reply asking me to come in for an interview, I would balk. Or I would try pushing past the anxiety and set up an appropriate time for the interview, but on the day of the interview, I would be too anxious to make myself go. The third thing to happen, at times, is I’d make myself go to the interview, but get too nervous to really talk much. The main problem I have in normal conversations and interview conversations is I feel discomfort whenever it is my turn to talk and the other person is looking at me expectantly.
Yesterday at my coloring book meet up, someone asked me and two other people what we like to do in our spare time. I never feel comfortable talking about myself. Immediately I wondered if I was forthcoming about my hobbies, would people think my interests are lame or stupid? That’s what comes down to it. I’m fearful of sounding stupid no matter what I say.
The difference now is I want to get better with interviews. So avoiding the one I have scheduled for tomorrow is not gonna help me in any way.
My last interview was about a month ago. I can’t say the interview went 100% well, but for the parts, I didn’t do as good in, that’s something I can take away from and improve on for the next interview, hopefully. I remember the position I interviewed for was an administrative assistant. I didn’t really have experience in this field beside data entry. When the interview noted this out loud, I froze in dismay. I wanted to respond that, although I have no paid experience, my history with volunteer work has given me the opportunity to learn new skills as I go, and that I could definitely learn the necessary skills for the job position. Instead of saying this, the words got stuck in my throat because, again, I was afraid of sounding stupid.
For those who have social anxiety and have had either good or bad job interview experiences, what advice can you give me?